I Liked Her First, but My Brain Was Broken, Then for Some Reason, I Became Friends With Beautiful Girls, So I’m Done My With Childhood Friends
“Ah.”
Morning. On the way to school, I spotted Mitsuki and Izumi kun walking side by side.
Mitsuki and Izumi kun were walking in front of me and didn’t even look back, probably engrossed in chatting.
The two were not so much close to each other as they were lovey-dovey, but they were standing next to each other at a distance that made it clear that they were close.
“……”
I still feel a prickle in my chest.
But it wasn’t so much that I absolutely didn’t want to see it.
It may be because I got to know Izumi kun a little better.
He was troubled and depressed at times, but he was still looking forward and trying his best to please Mitsuki.
I was jealous when he took Mitsuki. But I’m sure Izumi kun must have summoned up all his courage to confess his feelings. He did what I couldn’t do, and he did it with great effort.
I felt a little bit like cheering him on once I learned that he was that kind of person.
“Do your best. I’ve left it to you to do my part.”
I muttered in a small voice that no one could hear.
I hope you will forgive me if my words come from a slightly superior perspective.
I’ll follow Izumi kun’s example and work hard to look forward to the future.
I can’t be bound by Mitsuki’s existence forever. She has her life and I have mine.
“Good morning, Hiro kun. You look refreshed from this morning. Did something good happen?”
“Uwaaa !? M-morning Matsuyuki san…….”
I was surprised when I was suddenly approached by Matsuyuki san from nearby. When I looked at her, she was right next to me, but I didn’t realize she was that close until she greeted me…
I was looking at Mitsuki and Izumi kun, so I didn’t notice her? I was thinking and maybe I wasn’t paying attention to my surroundings.
“Looking at Mitsuki san and Seijuro kun……. Is it still awkward for your childhood friend to be with another boy?”
I was wondering if Matsuyuki san followed my line of sight and noticed Mitsuki and the others walking ahead of us.
“Not really. Just because we’re childhood friends doesn’t mean we can be together forever. I guess it’s normal for people to change after finding a lover like that.”
That’s right. It is natural for things to change.
I was afraid that the relationship we had built would change. I was shocked that someone I liked was taken away from me, but I was also afraid that my relationship with Mitsuki would change.
But I was finally ready to accept the change.
“Hiro kun, you’re kinda mature.”
“I didn’t mean to say anything noble.”
“No, that’s not what I meant…… Fufu, you look really nice after all.”
“Do I look handsome?”
“If you search all over the world, you might find someone who thinks Hiro kun is good-looking. Let’s do your best and don’t give up.”
“The encouragement was hard to take.”
We laughed.
I was able to laugh even when the sight of Mitsuki and Izumi kun together was in my sight.
I was finally convinced that I could get over my broken heart.
“But still.”
“Yes?”
I asked casually as I walked with Matsuyuki san toward the school.
“What’s going on with Matsuyuki san’s personal space?”
I had always thought that she was a girl with a close sense of distance, but lately I feel that distance has been shrinking even more.
We are so close that our shoulders are still touching each other. It’s about the same distance as the distance between Mitsuki and Izumi kun.
“Ah, I’m sorry. Was I too close?”
Matsuyuki san hurriedly moves away from me. I don’t mean to say that she should distance herself from me, but rather, she was moving away from me to the point where it became difficult to have a conversation.
“No, no, no, no, it’s too far. Come back.”
When Matsuyuki san came back, she had a troubled look on her face.
“I’m sorry. I’m…..very bad at measuring distance with people….”
Personal space. It is the area where you feel uncomfortable when others approach you.
Matsuyuki san doesn’t seem to be able to feel it very well. It seems that no matter who approaches her, a close friend or a stranger, the range of her personal space is the same.
Well, it is said that people with a small personal space are often cheerful and sociable, so it is not surprising that she, a cheerful person, does not feel much discomfort. She doesn’t know how introverted I am.
But now I don’t get nervous when a girl approaches me. I might be able to understand her feelings a little….and try to act like a cheerful person.
“I’m not averse to it or anything, so you don’t have to be overly concerned about it. It just bothered me a little.”
“……Other people say that to me too. I must be crazy because I don’t feel anything when the opposite sex is on the other end of the line.”
She gives me a smile that is clearly made up. My thoughtless words may have hurt Matsuyuki san.
I didn’t know she was that distressed. I’m stupid ! Why didn’t I realize it until I stepped on a landmine?
“Sometimes people say I talk funny too…….”
For someone who is said to be the prettiest girl in school, Matsuyuki san must be getting a lot of comments from people.
It’s true that other than Matsuyuki san, I don’t know of anyone who uses honorific language even with classmates.
“…It’s not weird.”
“Eh?”
It’s different from everyone else. That’s why it’s funny….. That’s another strong assumption, isn’t it?
“I don’t know if that way of speaking is your own or if you use honorifics intentionally, but if it’s something you decided for yourself, you don’t have to worry about what others think.”
When I was in elementary school. I, too, was once told that it was strange that I used honorifics. All the boys in my class used casual words.
Thinking about it now, it was common sense in a very small world.
I tried using casual words because everyone told me to, but it didn’t feel right at all. ……I took advantage of the grade change and class change and quietly went back to honorifics.
I want to change myself, and in fact, I think there are many things I need to change.
But it is also true that there are things that don’t need to be changed. Because if I change everything, I would not be the person I am today.
“I like the way you talk…… It’s your personality, and I’m used to hearing it that I’d be surprised if you suddenly stopped using honorifics……it’s just the way Matsuyuki san is.”
I’m starting to lose my words, aren’t I? Hm, what was I trying to say?
It turned out that I was not good at conversation. This is embarrassing…….
“The way I am……”
Matsuyuki san mumbles something with her face down.
“……Ahaha. You’re the first person to ever say that to me, Hiro kun.”
The next time she looked up, she had a radiant, full smile that wasn’t made up.
It seems like she’s recovered her mood for now, so let’s just say it’s okay. Yeah, it wasn’t the fact that I couldn’t finish what I said !
After that, we arrived at school chatting normally.
“Hm, Matsuyuki san, your face is red. Could it be a cold?”
After all this time, I notice that Matsuyuki san’s face is red. If I look closely, I can see that even her ears are red.
“Eh? I don’t feel particularly sick though.”
“I think you should go to the infirmary and have your temperature measured.”
The thermometer showed that Matsuyuki san did not have a fever.
I’m relieved to hear that she doesn’t seem to have a cold, but she should wash her hands and gargle just in case. Prevention is the best treatment.
Maigetsu