I Liked Her First, but My Brain Was Broken, Then for Some Reason, I Became Friends With Beautiful Girls, So I’m Done My With Childhood Friends
Kido san is not necessarily unsociable, but she is the type of person who has difficulty expressing her emotions.
It is only because I have empathy for her as a fellow introvert that I’m able to guess her feelings to some extent. Otherwise, there’s no way I, who doesn’t know much about girls’ feelings, would be able to get along well enough to be friends with her.
“Gusu……hiks……”
Kido san was crying on the rooftop.
Tears of sadness overflowed as if she couldn’t control her emotions. I had never imagined her to be so weak, so I lost track of the right time to speak to her.
Was she on the phone? She was just crying quietly with her phone to her ear, not saying anything.
“Ah…..”
I don’t know what to do at times like this.
Should I comfort her? Or should I pretend I didn’t see her?
“Phew.”
As I stood there, unable to decide how to treat Kido san, my eyes met hers.
Kido san hurriedly puts away her phone.
“Um, were you on the phone?”
“No, I wasn’t. I was already done.”
“I see……”
She wipes away her tears and tries to act as usual.
This means I shouldn’t ask her why she was crying, right?
I’m going to use the standard topic here too, and try to get back to the usual air of normality.
“I-it’s a beautiful day, isn’t it?”
“It’s cloudy today, though?”
“Eh? Oh, it’s true.”
No, read the air, weather !
It was getting even more awkward. I swallowed the air and sat down next to Kido san.
“……”
“……”
We nibbled on bread in silence.
It was a silent moment, just like when we first met. But I had never felt so awkward before.
I wonder why.
…I’m worried about the reason why Kido san was crying and can’t calm down.
“Ah……”
“Hm?”
“Oh, no, it’s nothing…….”
And yet, I’m frustrated that I can’t do anything about it.
Kido san might not want me to mention that she was crying.
Thinking that, I just couldn’t step in.
I wish I could just say something witty and easy-going at times like this…….
The protagonists of romantic comedy manga and novels usually have the kindness to think of the heroine.
It’s not like I’m expecting the relationship with Kido san to develop like a romantic comedy. A protagonist like that can say things that can save a girl’s heart when she is down. That is what I envy.
I’m sure I’ve read many books like that, but I can’t make myself useful in important places. I’m so unworthy.
If only I were a cheerful person. I wouldn’t have been silenced like this……
I was so resentful that Matsuyuki san was not here at the moment.
“Thank you for not asking…….”
“Eh?”
After Kido san finished eating the bread, she looked down and said something.
“Senpai, you saw me crying but you didn’t ask me anything… Thanks to you, I’ve calmed down a little.”
“I-I’m glad to hear that……”
I was right to remain silent? I couldn’t do anything about it, but I wasn’t wrong?
If she has calmed down, does that mean it’s okay to ask now?
Gulping down the remaining bread, I gathered my courage.
“You were crying earlier…..maybe it was because of those rumors?”
“Eh?”
I decided to ask boldly.
If the reason for Kido san’s tears was because of a bad rumor, as a senior and as a friend, I would like to do something about it.
“Whether those rumors are false or true, I’m on Kido san’s side. No matter what happens, even if everyone else is your enemy…I’ll definitely continue to be on Kido san’s side !”
I don’t care if the rumor is true or false.
Even if Kido san had nearly killed her father, I would still be on her side.
I know we haven’t known each other very long, but I know that she is not a person who would resort to violence for no reason.
She is a shy person like me, and she doesn’t talk much.
But when the time comes, she is very active. If she thinks I’m being bullied, she will protect me without regard to the other person or the people around me.
So, even if the rumors are true, I can only assume that there is a reason.
“I believe in you, Kido san. I want you to know that…….”
Because I know you are that kind of person. I want to be on Kido san’s side.
“Erm, what do you mean by rumor…..?”
“Eh?”
“Eh?”
……Hm?
Um, did I perhaps….say something unnecessary?
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In conclusion, Kido san did not know about the rumors.
It is usual for her to be alone in the classroom. So she didn’t realize that the reason for her isolation was because of the bad rumor.
“I’ve done it……”
I had no intention of telling her about the rumor, but……
I had witnessed Kido san crying, so I assumed it was because of the bad rumors. It was a lifetime mistake.
“Did Yazawa senpai come to my class during break because he was worried about the rumors about me?”
“You found out about that too !?”
It was only for a brief moment that I was in Kido san’s sight, and I thought that with my meager presence, she wouldn’t have found out about it……I felt like I had done something very embarrassing…….
“You thought so much of me…….”
I can’t hold my head down and not feel ashamed.
Oh…..time, rewind.
While I was writhing in agony, the bell rang, signaling the end of my lunch break.
In the end, I didn’t learn something new.
I can’t stick around because my afternoon classes are about to start. I’m such an idiot.
“Hm, Kido san, your face is red.”
“Y-you think so?”
I saw Kido san’s face turning red as she got up to leave the rooftop. Is it a cold?
I think she said something similar this morning.
Maybe it is a day when the weather is changing and people’s faces tend to turn red. I should take care of myself, too.
“If you’re not feeling well, you should go to the infirmary.”
“I’m fine….I think.”
She sounds hasty. Is she really okay?
When I tried to look into her face, she turned away.
I’m not sure if she hated me because of all the weird things I said and did !?
“Senpai……do you have time after school?’
When I was hanging my head, Kido san asked me that.
“Yeah. I don’t have any particular plans.”
I had no plans to hang out with my friends, and the release date of the novel I was looking for was still some time away.
“Then come to my house after school.”
“Yes?”
“I want you…..to get to know me better.”
She stares at me with passionate eyes.
Does this mean she is inviting me?
This is how I was invited for the first time to the home of a female friend other than a childhood friend.
Maigetsu