I’m Incompetent and a Failure, and My Childhood Friend, Who Is a Beautiful Kyoto Dialect Vice President Idol on the Outside but in Reality Is a Menhera Yandere, Is Dependent on Me, but Please, Leave Me Alone!
Kosaka Akemi is a popular person.
She has long, raven-black hair, fair skin, and a well-proportioned face like a doll.
Her style is like a model’s, with a body that shows where it needs to show and yet is firm where it needs to be pulled back, and she has a physique that is more than attractive enough to be a woman without any unnecessary flab.
She is a perfect beauty in appearance, ……, but her personality is a bit harsh, and the words she speaks in her characteristic Kyoto dialect are a bit harsh and unfriendly.
Well…that is one of the reasons why she has created her own image of being out of touch with the world, and it is also one of the reasons why a group of girls like Akemi’s followers was formed….
However…she herself speaks frankly to everyone.
Regardless of the school caste on school, or whether she is a negative or positive person, her attitude is the same to everyone, from the simple person at the edge of the classroom to the loud crowd singing in the middle of the classroom.
Contrary to her unapproachable image, her high popularity and position as vice president of the student council, combined with her high charisma, have led to her being highly popular.
In reality, however, she never gets closer to anyone than necessary.
Although she could make friends with any number of people if she wanted to, she maintains a certain distance from them.
This has not changed since elementary, junior high, and high school.
She always interacted with others at a certain distance.
However, I have the impression that she sometimes had a bug in her sense of distance only with me.
Recently, we have been going to and from school together, having lunch at lunchtime, going back and forth to each other’s houses… I have never heard of such a thing among others, except for me, as far as I know.
So, to be frank, I was so excited that I was the only one who was special to her.
But I never realized why.
She always keeps her distance from other people and only hangs out with them at regular intervals, so why does she have such a buggy distance from me?
I kept pretending I didn’t see the reason.
“Come on in.”
“Yeah…”
Today, I made up my mind to confront this reason and entered Akemi’s house…the Kosaka house.
The time was a little after 18:00.
She had just returned home from school after finishing her errand, and I could clearly feel her desire to quickly finish this chore.
What is she saying…?
She’s been scratching people’s heads like that… and when she gets tired of it, she’ll just toss it out?
You’ve got to be kidding me….
I can’t accept that after stalking me like a stalker for so long….
“I want to ask you first…I know you’re busy these days, but why are you blatantly avoiding me?”
“Avoiding you? Is that what you think, Akiru?”
“Isn’t it strange? your attitude is clearly different from the last time..perhaps you are cheating on me or anything…with the student council president…”
“Stupid… why should I be in love with that guy… I thought you knew perfectly well that I’m not interested in love affairs, didn’t you?”
“I thought I knew, but lately I’m starting to wonder… why are you dating me if you’re not interested in love in the first place?”
“That’s why you’re here, isn’t it? Well… let me tell you.”
Finally…
Finally, I get to hear what this woman is really thinking…
Why in the world is she going out with me…
The reason…
“I like your crying face….”
“……….. Ha…?”
“To be precise, I love to see your face when you challenge me like an idiot over and over again, and every time you do so, you lose completely… and when you are beaten down, you feel sorry for yourself, frustrated and miserable… and your heart is all messed up with such feelings.”
“What are you… saying…”
“I love to see your shameful, wet face… in tests… in sports… in petty squabbles… you’ve always challenged me in some way. And every time you were defeated by me, you always looked like you were about to cry.
As I watched your face, I wanted to see more of Akiru’s face… I wanted to see more of your distorted face… I began to think that way….
I want to make you cry… I want to make you miserable, frustrated, ashamed and…. I wanted to see your face so much, my messed up mind exposed… and I began to think like that.”
A blush appears on her cheeks as if she is loving something she loves, and Akemi is happy to speak her true feelings, which she has been keeping hidden inside.
Ironically, it was so innocent that it made me realize again that she is a girl of her age.
And it was a pure face with no malice.
That is why I cannot understand….
What this girl is saying….
As a childhood friend, I can understand that what this girl is saying is definitely her true feelings….
That was just creepy….
“I don’t want you to get the wrong idea…it’s not just anyone who looks frustrated…I don’t know why, but you’re the only one who stirs up my heart like this…you’re the only one who makes me crazy…….For example, the student council president…I don’t care if he makes a mistake and seems embarrassed…at most he’s an idiot…it’s just you…it’s only you…Akiru… ”
“I-Is that why you’ve been following me around?….”
“Do you remember when we were in junior high school? When I was in junior high school, you used to challenge me all the time… that thing… that made me… really happy…”
“Happy…?”
“Well…I was happy…I have a lot of people around me…they gather around me.
But from my point of view, they are just a bunch of people…a bunch of scum….
All they want to do is treat me like an idol and lift me up… In the end, they’re just worthless people who just enjoy lifting me up and doing good things… They want to be my lover.. want to be friends… They’re all just fake.”
“……….”
“And you, Akiru… you’re not…”
“No?”
“You’re the only one who saw me as me… who didn’t flatter me, who didn’t use me, who just treated me as a person… and to tell you the truth, no one is more precious to me than you. There is no one else.”
“W-Well… then… then why?”
“I’ve been ignoring me?”
“Yes, that’s right… why did you…?”
“Lies”
“What?”
“I don’t know what my father told you, but what you’re doing right now, it’s not what you want… it’s a lie.”
“T-That’s not true! I’m with you!”
“Y-you… are you serious? You don’t think I won’t find out? You’ve been fooled… you are just pretending that you are facing Akemi, and you’re just getting drunk on your own disgusting monkey play, aren’t you? Really….”
“W-What… what makes you think that…”
“I told you before, I love to see your twisted face… I love to see your emotionally exposed face… You are the only one who can expose me to my true and ugly nature… unlike the other guys, you not only take care of the pretty parts… you don’t even do flattery… I like you that way.”
“……Ah”
“You’re just like the others right now… you’re boring… are you trying to show some leeway? … you get it, right? I told you why I was so attached to you, right? okay… go home!”
I grab onto Akemi,
I grab her thin, supple…yet well-trained arms and subdue her with force.
“Stop playing around! Don’t play mascot! I’m I’m!”
“Akiru…?”
“How I’ve been thinking… all this time… finally with you… and yet…! And yet! You! You!”
“What…. your face… Fufu ……fuehehe”
“What are you laughing at?! I’m doing my best for you!!”
“Oh, yeah? I’m sorry to hear that, but…. But… no one asked you to…”
“You! Bitch!”
In a fit of rage, I pushed Akemi down onto her bed, and then I just lay on top of her.
As if to get back at her for what she had done to me one day.
The difference in power between a man and a woman is obvious.
It is not easy for even Akemi to shake me off as a high school student.
Is that why you don’t resist?
I don’t care about that anymore, I’m going to make this woman…this bitch, understand.
I put my hands on Akemi’s uniform,
I force off her jacket, revealing two plump, round, shapely mounds of soft flesh covered by her underwear.
Just looking at her makes my rationality jump…I see Akemi’s soft skin for the first time…how …… beautiful she is….
If I roll up her skirt, I can see her smooth, white and firm legs and thighs……my eyes are glued to her.
I want this woman… to be mine ……, mine and mine alone…
Then I come back to myself.
What’s the point of doing this…?
I don’t want to conquer Akemi with all my might….
I want to be recognized by Akemi…
I want to have a proof that I can walk next to Akemi.
I want proof that I will walk with Akemi….
Otherwise, Akemi will…
Akemi has been…
She’s out of my reach… she’ll never come to me…
That’s why I’ve been trying so hard all this time… …… but with this…
Then I suddenly realize.
I thought I was forgiven because Akemi’s dad told me…?
That was a compromise… I was justifying the compromise by raising an exemption just because Akemi’s father told me to….
Because I chose to compromise by walking behind Akemi instead of next to her… because I quit challenging Akemi… so…
She has given up on me…?
Fearfully, I look at Akemi.
I look at her face…
There was Akemi with a face as pale as a doll.
It was as if she had no emotions…because she was such a well-proportioned beauty, her face had an eeriness that made her look more like a doll.
However, it only took a moment for her cheeks to blush and her eyes to become vacant.
Akemi kissed me as I was kissing her.
She put her tongue in.
It was a deep one.
I can’t catch my breath.
I almost lose consciousness from the happiness, but Akemi pulls her lips away from mine and I manage to suck in air as if I were sucking in air.
Akemi licks off my saliva around her lips with her tongue and smiles seductively.
“……? What… why…?
“You have such a nice face… you’re giving me the hots…”
“….Ha?”
“It was worth the provocation… you made a nice face… just like you…”
“You…”
“I have no romantic feelings for you…I don’t like you, I don’t care about you…All I have is a helpless urge towards you…I want to mess you up…I’ll humiliate your pure face. I want to make your face wet and ugly and messy…that’s all…”
“…I’m just a little shocked though…”
“That’s why I didn’t tell you until now… it’s an urge I can’t stop myself… you’re a very sinful man… I’ve been going right and left to see your face…”
I wonder if this is what you call a sexual habit…
She has no romantic feelings for me… but it seems that my humiliating face is stuck in her habits.
It is so deep that she is willing to kiss me.
She would even play lover and kiss me to see my face……she had such a very abnormal sexual habit for a long time……is that why…?
I can’t catch up with my understanding….
But I somehow know that she is not lying because we have known each other for many years.
To be honest, it’s complicated……my unrequited love is revealing to me that I am her habit….
I can’t be honestly happy about it….
But the lower half of my body is honest.
It seems that the miraculous event in front of my eyes does not cease to interest me.
At any rate…I finally came to know why Akemi was so obsessed with me.
Seems like it’s repeating chapter 19 or something
Fixed, sorry for that
wait is this double post?because the content same as the chapter 19
Fixed, sorry for that