The Gal Next to Me Is Trying Too Hard to Make Me Fall in Love With Her
“Well, shall we go to bed?”
We both took showers, got ready for bed, and I laid out the guest futon on the floor, urging Amagi san to use it.
Amagi san still looked lifeless.
She nodded when she saw the futon, so it seemed that she understood that this was where she would be sleeping tonight.
“I’ll turn off the lights.”
With a click, the lights were dimmed to a nightlight.
Only a small orange glow softly illuminated the room.
“Good night.”
“…Good night…”
We exchanged greetings and went to our own beds.
I climbed into the futon and exhaled softly.
Today was exhausting.
I was given an important role in the school festival, lots of girls came to my house, and even Amagi-san stayed over.
The school festival-related activities will continue until the actual event.
The pressure is giving me a headache and my stomach is in knots, but to be honest, I enjoyed today’s chaotic meeting and working out the details with Amagi-san.
Until now, I had always just watched events like this from a distance.
I’d watch them having fun with a detached attitude, thinking that even if I participated, I’d just be a nuisance, and I’d comfort myself by feeling sorry for myself for not being able to join in.
Seeing my classmates who were active, I decided that I couldn’t imitate them, but deep down, I was hoping they’d rely on me.
But this time, I’m almost at the center of it all.
I feel a sense of excitement about this responsibility.
[Look! Saeki made this for me! Isn’t my Saeki amazing?]
I can picture the energetic Amagi showing off the lunch I made for her.
It’s all thanks to her.
She was the one who pulled me out of my negative mindset and brought me into the light. I’m afraid of other people’s expectations, but it was because of her that I realized that it’s not just fear.
It’s been less than two months since I started hanging out with Amagi, but I feel like my daily life has changed a lot.
And definitely for the better.
Even though there is a risk that my dream of living alone, which I wanted so badly, will be shattered, I’m glad that she is there for me.
I am truly, truly grateful.
I am happy.
I regret that I don’t have the vocabulary to explain this feeling in more detail.
“……Yoishotto…..”
“……Um, Amagi san……?”
“!”
Rustling. Squirming.
Just when I thought she had stood up quietly, Amagi san began to slowly creep into my bed.
When I spoke to her, she opened her eyes wide in surprise, clearly visible even in the dim light.
“Why are you trying to get into my bed? If you want me to kick you out, I’ll do it anytime.”
“No, no, that’s not it! It’s not that… it’s not that, it’s…!”
“I don’t understand…”
“I’m scared to get into the futon alone! If I stick my feet out, I feel like someone will grab me, and if I cover myself with the futon, I feel like I can hear something, and I feel like someone is watching me all the time!”
“You’re too influenced by movies…”
“Just let me in! I’m really scared and can’t sleep!”
“Wait, wait!! Ugh!”
She forcefully pulled back the futon and squeezed herself in.
This is definitely not good. I have to kick her out.
That’s what I thought.
“Saeki… Uuuuu Saeki…”
Amagi san buried her face in my chest and trembled.
This is impossible. She’s so scared, I can’t tell her to leave.
When I nursed her before, I had no choice but to touch her body… Well, I guess this is unavoidable too. Yeah, it’ll be okay. There’s nothing I can do about it.
“There’s nothing to be afraid of, so please don’t worry.”
Suddenly, I remembered the past.
It was a hot summer night before my younger brothers started elementary school. We were all watching a ghost show, and they got scared and crawled into my futon, and then they wet the bed…
Feeling nostalgic, I gently stroked Amagi san’s back, just like I did back then. Gently, as if to calm her down and put her to sleep. Gently.
“…Saeki…”
“What is it?”
“…I like you.”
“Ah, thank you…”
“…Can you hug me?”
Wait, what kind of request is this?
Well, whatever… I’ve hugged her plenty of times before.
I tightened my grip on her hand and gently pulled her closer. She grabbed my pajamas and pulled me closer, as if to keep me from leaving.
“…Actually…”
“Huh?”
“Actually… I planned to scare Saeki with a horror movie, take a bath together, and do something naughty. But now this has happened… I feel so frustrated…”
So, you had such a ridiculous plan?
Yet, you got scared yourself and ended up like this. This is the top student in our class… It’s beyond disappointing; it’s almost amusing.
“…I know it’s not my place to say this, but since we’re sleeping together, isn’t the plan half successful?”
In fact, I allowed her to get into bed because Amagi was seriously scared.
When she said that, she slowly raised her face. She blinked her eyes and I muttered, “That’s true.”
“I-I’m sleeping with Saeki…! What is this? It’s so erotic!”
“…If you’re not scared anymore, I’ll have you sleep downstairs.”
“No, I’m scared! I’m scared, but… hehe♡ Ihi♡”
It was nice that she was back to her usual self a little, but instead, the danger level had increased.
I wish I hadn’t said anything extra…
“If we stay like this until morning… my whole body will smell like Saeki’s♡”
She smiled sweetly and pulled the blanket over her mouth.
Her hot, slightly damp breathing made my heart flutter.
“…But I can smell another girl’s scent…”
“You’re not a dog, so how would you know that…!”
“…Has someone been sitting on this bed?”
“About three people at a time… Probably all of them at least once…”
“See! I knew it!”
She puffed out her cheeks and furrowed her brows.
Her angry face is cute too… I thought to myself as I relaxed, when suddenly she hugged me and buried her face in my neck.
“Hey! Amagi-san!”
“Everyone’s coming back tomorrow, right? So I’m going to leave my scent on you so you can’t get away!”
“You don’t have to do that. I’m not going to get into a weird relationship with anyone else!”
“I don’t know! Because Saeki is so considerate, can cook, and is so cool! If I love him this much, he must be popular with other girls too!”
“Stop saying nonsense and get off me—”
No matter how I tried to push her away, she wouldn’t let go.
When I pushed her, I felt something soft. It was the same softness I felt when Amagi san was ill, and my brain froze and I couldn’t speak.
Amagi and I made eye contact.
She blushed in surprise, but after a few seconds, the corners of her mouth turned up in an impure smile.
“I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to… It’s so cramped and dark, I couldn’t help but reach out…”
Amagi grabbed my hand as I tried to pull it away.
Her eyes, filled with passion, reflected my image. Her gaze told me she wasn’t going anywhere. Her breathing made it clear that she wouldn’t forgive me if I left her.
I couldn’t resist her overwhelming power.
Our hands were still touching, and it made me so happy that I felt an extraordinary sense of guilt.
“It wasn’t on purpose. It was dark, so it couldn’t be helped. That’s why this isn’t an inappropriate relationship. It’s okay, everything’s fine.”
“Does that logic even make sense…?”
“…So, what do you think?”
“What do you mean, ‘what do I think’…”
“Does it make you happy when you touch me?”
“…………”
“Hey.”
“…Well, I’m happy, but…”
“But?”
“More than that… I’m worried about whether it hurts or not…”
“…I love that about you, Saeki♡”
Even in the dim light, her white teeth shine.
Her innocent yet dangerous smile makes my heart race.
“It doesn’t hurt. I’ve never felt pain when Saeki touched me.”
“Is that so…”
“Just touch me more, okay?”
“No, but…”
“Do you understand?”
“What are you talking about…?”
“Right now… I’m not wearing any underwear.”
The sensation through the thin nightgown.
My senses, dulled by surprise, gradually returned, and I felt something unusually hard at the base of my index finger. Her intense gaze silently conveyed what it was.
A slight movement.
She seemed to enjoy my realization and even my anxiety.
“So, you see? It feels good, doesn’t it? Come on…”
Guided by Amagi san, my fingers sank into her skin.
She let out a sweet moan and immediately smiled seductively. As if to affirm everything about me.
“…Ahh♡ It feels good♡”
My intelligence burned.
My reason burned.
My mind is ablaze, yet my instincts remain unscathed, even swollen.
In the mountain of ashes, dark, filthy emotions writhe.
That ugly thing that has always been inside me, no matter what, craves her.
“Your face is close… Is that okay…?”
“…………”
“…Hey.”
“…………”
I felt her breath on my lips.
Close enough to count her eyelashes.
Gently, she released my hand.
She placed her hand on my cheek and narrowed her eyes lovingly.
That gaze, everything about her, fueled the irresistible impulse within me.
“Want to kiss?”
I thought she had given her permission.
It felt like she was saying it was okay to expose that ugly part of me.
I thought it would be fine if everything ended here.
Such thoughts raced through my mind.
—But.
That’s why my soul slammed on the brakes.
“No… no way!”
I clenched my teeth, clinging to the last remnants of my rationality.
I pulled my hand away from her chest, took a step back, and exhaled deeply from the bottom of my stomach. I wiped the sweat from my forehead with the back of my hand.
“Moooou!! Why, why!! I was so close!!”
Amagi san looked completely dissatisfied.
I apologized, breathing lightly. My heart rate was so high that I felt dizzy. I couldn’t get enough oxygen and my eyes were spinning.
“If we’re going to do something like this… it’s better to do it after we’re dating…! So, it’s not okay right now. I might not be able to stop myself and do something terrible…!”
Amagi seemed dissatisfied, but after hearing my words, her expression gradually softened. Her cheeks flushed slightly, and her lips formed a seductive curve.
“If we kiss, you won’t be able to stop?”
“That’s what I’m saying…”
“You’ll do something crazy to me…?”
“Probably…”
“Eeeeeee♡ Saeki, you’re so naughty♡ I love you♡♡♡”
Even though I’m warning her it’s dangerous, she’s writhing in pleasure.
Maybe she just likes me that much, but her lack of concern for her own safety is scary.
“Wait, what do you mean ‘after we start dating’? Does that mean there’s a chance we could date!?”
“…………”
“You want to make me your girlfriend, right? Right?”
“…………Let’s go to bed soon…”
“Hey, don’t turn away from me! Let’s talk some more! Otherwise, I’ll take off my clothes and press my bare breasts against you!”
“What kind of threat is that!? If you do that—”
“You’ll do something terrible?”
“I won’t! I’ll kick you out!”
“Eww! That’s mean!”
“If you keep complaining, I won’t come with you to the bathroom in the middle of the night!”
“What!? No, I don’t want that! I can’t go to the bathroom alone!”
“Then go to sleep quickly! I’m going to sleep too! Good night!”
Somehow, I managed to persuade Amagi san to shut up.
She deliberately closed the distance between us and pressed herself against my back.
At first, I thought about stopping her, but if we kept arguing, we would never be able to sleep, so I decided to ignore her as long as she didn’t do anything strange.
Her body temperature was high.
The steady rhythm of her breathing was comforting.
It was strange and delightful to have another person in what was supposed to be a lonely single bed.
I didn’t realize it when I was living at my parents’ house, but I guess I like sleeping with someone else.
No, that’s not quite right.
It’s probably because it’s Amagi-san next to me.
Maiban