A Cheeky Junior Denied Me My Entire Life, so I Tested What Would Happen if I Jumped off a Rooftop to Vent My Anger
Kamiya Yana was walking around the city at night that day, aimlessly.
The day after Aoi Susumu contacted the school, he did not come to school. Not only did he not reply to messages sent to him, but he did not even read them.
The regret, which should have been small at first, gradually and gradually swelled up inside her heart. The next thing she knows, she is looking for Susumu.
“Senpai, what are you really doing ……?”
She already knew that the rumor that Susumu had jumped from the roof was not true. If he had really jumped, there would be no way he would have contacted the school, and more importantly, Rengo had witnessed Susumu.
But then why doesn’t he come to school and mark his messages as read? …Just because you’re hated doesn’t mean you don’t come to school.
Perhaps Susumu is involved in some kind of incident. There are rumours that a bloody man has been seen in the area recently. ……Yana was worried.
The only person who saw Susumu was Rengo, but no matter how much she questioned him, he didn’t say anything significant. To begin with, Rengo also stopped showing up at club activities from that day onwards. The truth of what Rengo said about Susumu being taken care of by Asama is also still unknown.
So every night, Yana would search around the vicinity of the place where Rengo said he had seen Susumu.
“I really …… feel like an idiot. What am I doing?”
At first, it was just curiosity.
Just after entering high school. She heard a rumor about Susumu in the grade one year above her.
He was the youngest genius to win a prize at the Etoile painting exhibition, which accepts entries from all over the world. His name was special to people of this age who draw pictures.
This genius, Aoi Susumu, attends the same high school. Yana hears a rumour, visits the art club just for the fun of it, and finds him there.
“…………”
He is a timid and lazy boy, who only smiles vaguely and doesn’t say anything back when he is being talked about behind his back. Such a timid-looking boy. That was her first impression of Susumu.
The man she saw on the news had a dignity that made it hard to believe he was a junior high school student, and he had a unique atmosphere that silenced the media, who were more than twice as old as he was.
But now he is a liability in the art club. He is shunned by seniors and juniors alike, and doesn’t even draw much. And yet, with his connections and past glory, he is treated more specially than anyone else. He is a former genius who only clings to his past achievements.
That was a boy called Aoi Susumu.
……, Yana was also attracted to such Susumu. His eyes, which are so thin that they seem to break if you tap them, but which sometimes glower at the world, make an impression on him that he is mysterious.
Perhaps the seemingly excessive backbiting against him was the opposite of fright. …… Especially his childhood friends, Rengo and Ririka, seemed to have unusual feelings towards Susumu.
Well, anyway, Yana was attracted to Aoi Susumu, who was nothing like the genius she had seen on television. She really wanted to know what his dark eyes were looking at.
So, even though she had already planned to quit painting in high school, Yana went out of her way to join the art club and approached him.
At first, she was a bit intimidated. After three months, she followed Susumu around in a mocking manner. Yana, who had never been good at communicating, deliberately made swearing remarks to get his attention.
She probably had a sense of superiority inside …… . The genius who caused such a stir in the world cannot say anything back to herself, an ordinary person. It was a pleasant feeling, and it allowed her to get back into painting, which she had once thought she had failed at.
Besides, Susumu forgives her no matter what she says. He is never angry at her. With Susumu, she doesn’t have to worry.
Yana had been under this impression for some time and was unaware that she was speaking out of turn.
And the result was that day on the rooftop.
It’s not that Yana is entirely responsible. It was Susumu’s will to go up the stairs, and it was his will to climb over the fence. But …… it was definitely Yana who gave the final push.
“…… I owe him an apology.”
After all this time, Yana felt guilty. …… unconsciously, a disgusting self that had looked down on Susumu. By making fun of him, she felt a sense of superiority. The stupid self who didn’t think about Susumu’s feelings and said only terrible things to him.
Looking back, she was a really terrible woman, and yet he was always helping her behind her back.
It doesn’t matter anymore about his genius or his drawings or whatever. She has to apologise, properly, once. she doesn’t know if he’ll forgive her, and she doesn’t think they’ll ever get back to the way things were.
But even so, she can’t just go on like this and pretend it didn’t happen.
“I am different from Usa-senpai and Toyama-senpai. In the end, those people only think about themselves …….”
While muttering these words, Yana walks through the city at night. Ever since Susumu disappeared, Yana has been out every night. When her parents questioned her about the reason, they became angry.
Even so, Yana continued to search for Susumu. She didn’t even realize what that feeling was…
“……ah.”
There, Yana found a boy coming out of an abandoned building.
“Hey, could that be ……?”
Yana’s walking pace increases. Her legs move on their own, as if she’s being drawn to them. Before she knew it, Yana was running towards the boy like a child running to her parents.
“As expected…… Senpai! Aoi-senpai!”
“…………”
Can’t he hear Yana’s voice like that? The boy …… Aoi Susumu did not return any words and looked up at the sky with dark eyes.
“Senpai! Please don’t ignore me! What are you doing in a place like this?—“
There, Yana unintentionally closes her mouth. …… Susumu was laughing. Distorting his mouth as if it were ripped open, with a face as if he were a different person than before, he laughed.
…Probably calling out to him here was the biggest mistake. Because of this night, Yana…
Yana didn’t notice anything. She wasn’t wandering around the city at night worrying about Susumu. All she wanted was him to be kind and say, [It’s not your fault.]
–Yana still turned away from such a weak heart.
And above all, Susumu was no longer the timid boy Yana knew.