I Liked Her First, but My Brain Was Broken, Then for Some Reason, I Became Friends With Beautiful Girls, So I’m Done My With Childhood Friends
Since then, in the relaxed atmosphere of the coffee shop, my conversation with Matsuyuki san has been lively.
This me ! Unbelievably, I had a lively conversation with a girl !
Even after I left Matsuyuki san, I still couldn’t believe that I had accomplished such a feat. Maybe I’m actually good at talking?
“I know that if I get carried away, I’ll probably end up getting hurt.”
In reality, things like this only worked because the other person had better communication skills. Don’t ever make the mistake of thinking that I’m a good talker myself.
But it was still fun. My steps naturally lightened.
I went home and headed straight for my room.
It was fun, but I think I made a few mistakes today. Let’s start a one-way review discussion.
“You’re late, Hiro.”
‘Eh !?”
When I opened the door to my room, Mitsuki was waiting for me. I was so surprised that I let out a strange voice.
“W-why is Mitsuki here !?”
“You shouldn’t be that surprised. This happens all the time.”
It is. I was surprised to find that Mitsuki often visited my room, taking advantage of the fact that we have known each other since childhood.
I thought this would stop now that she has a boyfriend……
No, no, no, rather than my thinking being naive, isn’t it just Mitsuki’s naive side? I don’t think it’s okay for a girl with a boyfriend to just walk into a boy’s room.
She’s sitting on the bed as a matter of course…… I’m sure she doesn’t care because she think we’re childhood friends, but I’m nervous about it. You know what I’m talking about ! …..I can never say it.
“Erm…….”
It was unusual for Mitsuki, who was always so excited, to stutter.
When I think about the exchange at the coffee shop, I think she came here to get angry at my attitude. I waved her off and things like that. For Mitsuki, she might be as angry as her dog biting her hand. So, am I a dog?
“I-I’m sorry, Hiro.”
“Eh?”
I was wary of the situation, and Mitsuki bowed her head and apologized.
I thought she might get angry, but I was surprised by this and stared at Mitsuki.
“I had heard so many bad rumors about Matsuyuki san that when I imagined Hiro falling prey to her poison, my head went like that…… I’m really sorry for behaving like that without knowing her well enough…….”
Matsuyuki san’s poison…..it somehow conveys Mitsuki’s image.
“After thinking about it, I realized that even if Matsuyuki san were a bad girl, she wouldn’t target someone like Hiro. You see, Hiro is an inconspicuous boy, so there’s no reason for him to bother with her.”
“Didn’t you just diss me?”
Mitsuki ignored my words and continued.
“So, if Matsuyuki san is really Hiro’s friend, I wonder if she would’ve done something…..maybe there’s a 3% chance of that happening.”
Three percent or so feels like a realistic number to be considering. Mitsuki is so unforgiving in her evaluation of me that it hurts…
“Is that why you came here?”
“Yeah. Didn’t things get awkward with Matsuyuki san after that?”
Mitsuki looks up at me.
I’ve always had a soft spot for her eyes like this.
She was genuinely concerned about me, and when she was in the wrong, she sincerely apologized.
Because she faces me properly….. Mitsuki is the only person like that.
“I’m fine. I’m more worried about Mitsuki. How did things go with Izumi kun after that?”
After I said it, I thought, shoot.
I had never intended to ask it myself.
In contrast to my feelings, Mitsuki’s mouth relaxes.
“Yeah…… Izumi kun calmed me down calmly. Thanks to him, I was able to think about apologizing to Hiro like this.
Mitsuki strokes her chestnut hair and answers with more joy than embarrassment.
“I see…..thanks to Izumi kun…….”
I didn’t want to hear this kind of talk……
When Mitsuki smiles, my heart throbs and aches.
Just thinking that that smile came from someone other than me makes me feel like something sharp is being stabbed into my heart.
I like Mitsuki. I love Mitsuki so much that even though she has made a lover, I still love her.
“Ehehe, I’m really glad that Izumi kun is my boyfriend.”
I’m choking up.
The day when Mitsuki’s happiness would be painful is something I never thought would happen. Even when I don’t look at her, I can tell from her facial expressions and attitude that she is building a smooth relationship with her boyfriend.
I didn’t want to find that out…..
“Okay, we’re done talking. Now go.”
I couldn’t take it any longer and ended the conversation.
“What?! I haven’t heard anything about Hiro and Matsuyuki san yet.”
“We are just friends. That’s all ! I’m busy too, so please go home soon.”
“Don’t push me～ You’re so mean～”
“Okay, bye.”
I kicked Mitsuki out of the room.
“……”
Mitsuki was saying something from the other side of the door, but I couldn’t even reply. I was able to act normally, but there was no room for me at all.
After a while, I heard footsteps coming down the stairs and breathed a sigh of relief that she was finally home.
My legs relaxed and I sat down, leaning my back against the door.
“Damn…….”
The throbbing in my chest has yet to subside.
I wonder how long it will take for my heart to sort itself out. I’m not sure how long it will take.
“I wish I could change……”
I don’t want to be pushed around by Mitsuki forever.
I didn’t want to be a burden to Mitsuki forever…..
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The morning arrived with a destroyed brain and a wounded heart that remained unchanged.
“……”
My head is foggy. I have no energy.
The routine is ingrained in my body, so I got ready and headed off to school.
“Y-Yazawa kun.”
“Eh?”
I changed into my shoes and walked down the hallway toward my classroom.
At that moment, a shadow suddenly pulled me to the wall. I had no way to resist.
“I-I have something to talk to you about…I-I wonder if that’s okay?”
The boy was a head taller than me.
He was breathing heavily, probably because he used his strength to corner me against the wall. The breath of my breath hits my face, giving me a strange feeling.
“Uh-huh…….”
I could only nod at the sudden contact of Izumi kun, Mitsuki’s boyfriend.
Maigetsu