Episode 41 – The Moving Heart


I, Who Was Reincarnated as an Evil Character With Cheat-Level Stats in an Eroge, Will Live Freely in This Life


โ—Hiiragi Saki (side)

โ€•โ€•After Kisaragi-kun left, I was talking with Mom.

โ€œBut seriously, Dad, why can’t he just come home right away?! He’s never around when it really matters!!!โ€

โ€œIt can’t be helped, Mom. He said he had a lot of meetings today, and it’s hard to suddenly clear his schedule. When I called, he was in a meeting and had his phone on silent.โ€

It seemed Dad had been swamped with work-related matters until just before the call came in, and now he was rushing home in a hurry.

โ€œI know that, butโ€ฆโ€

โ€œI’m fine, so it’s okay.โ€

โ€œWell, if you say so, Sakiโ€ฆ But still, how did that guy even find out you’re Himesaki Ruruka?โ€

โ€œThatโ€ฆ I don’t know either. There shouldn’t have been any identifiable informationโ€ฆโ€

โ€œI watch all your streams too, so I know thatโ€ฆโ€

โ€œShould I hold off on streaming for a while?โ€

Honestly, I wanted to keep streaming to deliver my songs, but this incident had me feeling uneasy.

I didn’t know if that person had tracked me down on their own, or if someone else knew about meโ€ฆ But one thing I could say for sure was that it hadn’t spread online.

I checked, and my identity hasn’t been exposed. There’s been absolutely nothing related to it online.

If it were out there, it would’ve spread instantlyโ€ฆ I don’t know about the future, but for nowโ€ฆ

โ€œWhy don’t we talk to the police about this first? Personally, I want you to do what you want, Saki. But if you decide to quit, you should talk to your dad, Miku-chan, and Kana-chan, right? And you have fans like Seito-kun, too?โ€

โ€œY-Yeah, you’re rightโ€ฆโ€

It’s true. Miku-chan and Kana-chan keep supporting me, and even Kisaragi-kun says he’s a fan. If possible, I really do want to keep going.

โ€œStill, Seito-kun is such a great guy. I was surprised by how mature he is. You don’t find many high schoolers like that, do you?โ€

โ€œMaybe. At least, there’s no one like Kisaragi-kun in my class?โ€

I said my class, but honestly, I don’t think there’s anyone like him in my gradeโ€ฆ or even the whole school.

I know it might sound weird coming from me, since I hardly ever interact with guys, but there’s the fact about Miku-chan and Kana-chan too.

Honestly, I totally get why Miku-chan acknowledges him and why Kana-chan fell for him now.

Like Kana-chan said, he’s dependable and makes you feel safe. This whole incident really drove that home for me. Having Kisaragi-kun there this time really made me feel safe too.

This whole thing could easily have left me traumatized, but it didn’t. That’s definitely thanks to Kisaragi-kunโ€ฆ though of course, it’s also thanks to Miku-chan and Kana-chan.

โ€œBut I was really surprised you could talk to a boy other than Tsubasa-kunโ€ฆ though personally, I’m really happy about itโ€ฆโ€

Mom said that with a happy smile.

It’s true, back in middle school, I was so bad at talking to boys that my teacher even contacted Mom out of concernโ€ฆ The teacher tried all sorts of things to help fix it, but it just didn’t workโ€ฆ Middle school was even worse than nowโ€ฆ

โ€œI’m surprised myselfโ€ฆ But I’m trying to get to the point where I can at least talk to boys when absolutely necessary.โ€

Back in middle school, I didn’t really care if I couldn’t talk to them, but as I got closer to high school, that mindset changed.

So I wouldn’t have to rely on Miku-chan or Kana-chanโ€ฆ just the bare minimum, you knowโ€ฆ though honestly, I still can’t talk to anyone except Kisaragi-kun and Tsubasa-kunโ€ฆ

โ€œYou can do it, Saki. No need to rush, just take it slow.โ€

โ€œYeahโ€ฆโ€

โ€œSo, Saki, how do you feel about Seito-kun?โ€

Naturally, being asked that threw me into a terrible panic.

Mom, why are you asking me that!?

โ€œUmโ€ฆ that isโ€ฆโ€

โ€œAs a member of the opposite gender, you know?โ€

โ€œI-I-I don’t know about thatโ€ฆโ€

I blurted out in panic. My face must have been bright redโ€ฆ

Seeing me like that, Mom smiled and said.

โ€œHehe, I see. Well, I’m sure you’ll find someone you like eventually, Saki. When that time comes, give it your best shot, okay?โ€

โ€œY-yeahโ€ฆ I’m going to my room to rest!โ€

Embarrassed, I said that and fled to my room.ใ€€

โ—‡

โ€”Lying on my bed in my room, I muttered.

โ€œUgh, Mom, why did she have to say something like thatโ€ฆโ€

Sure, I want to get married someday, have kids, and build a happy familyโ€ฆ But that’s all in the distant future. Getting a boyfriend? That’s way too much for me right nowโ€ฆ

โ€œBut Kisaragi-kun really was kindโ€ฆโ€

Tsubasa-kun was the only guy I’d ever properly interacted with outside my family, but he and Kisaragi-kun were completely different types.

Tsubasa-kun was more of a handful, always needing looking after, but I thought all boys were like that.

Kisaragi-kun was totally different, though. He was incredibly dependable, always worrying about me and comforting me. When he said he’d protect me, it gave me such a huge sense of security. Plus, every single word he spoke had warmth in it, and it felt really good.

I hadn’t interacted much with boys before, so I didn’t realize they could be so different.

I wondered which one was โ€œnormal,โ€ but I guess Kisaragi-kun is just special. Miku-chan and Kana-chan have such good impressions of him too.

When my mom asked me what I thought of Kisaragi-kun, honestly, my heart was pounding.

When he protected me from that man back then, when he held me tight, my heart was definitely racing.

It wasn’t because I was scared. Of course, I felt scared too, but on top of that, I was definitely also flustered by Kisaragi-kun.

I mean, even before that, he’d looked at me with such sincere eyes and said he’d protect me. There’s no way I wouldn’t be happy about that, no way my heart wouldn’t race.

I’d only ever heard words like that in mangaโ€ฆ Like Kana-chan said, Kisaragi-kun’s casual words and actions are so smart and wonderful. I really understood that over this past week.

I thought about it again just now, but I think it’s thanks to him that this incident didn’t leave a huge scar on my heart.

โ€œCome to think of it, Kana-chan asked me a while back if I had a crush on someone, didn’t she?โ€

I remember being really surprised and flustered back then, probably because it was right after I started reading romance manga and it felt so timely. Plus, I’d never even talked about my own love life before, so it was even more unexpected.

But I don’t even remember what I said anymoreโ€ฆ

If she asked me now, how would I answer?

Kisaragi-kun is Kana-chan’s boyfriend, her boyfriendโ€ฆ but there’s a part of me that can’t forget Kisaragi-kun’s kindness, his strength, his coolness.

It was only a week, but Kisaragi-kun’s presence had definitely grown larger inside me.

โ€œSo this feeling really isโ€ฆโ€

The more I thought about it, the more my head felt fuzzy and my face grew hot.

This feeling is new to me. Right now, I’m definitely really drawn to Kisaragi-kun. And as a member of the opposite gender.

โ€œBut why?โ€

After the incident, I could talk to Kisaragi-kun normally, right?

If I really did fall for him, I don’t think I could talk so casuallyโ€ฆ

My heart pounded wildly whenever I spoke with him, yet somehow I felt at ease talking to him. It might sound contradictory, but that’s truly how it felt.

Even with the Himesaki Ruruka thing, I was scared to tell him because I thought he might be disappointed. But since the stalker had already come out and said it, I figured Kisaragi-kun, who said he was a fan, couldn’t possibly care, so I took a chance and told him. He believed me and accepted it so easily, and I was incredibly happy.

Kisaragi-kun acknowledged that both Himesaki Ruruka and me, as Hiiragi saki, have lots of good points, and it made me really happy.

In just this one weekโ€”it was only a weekโ€”I found myself caring about Kisaragi-kun enough to want to get closer to him.

I still don’t quite understand what this feeling is.

But I guess that’s probably what it isโ€ฆ

Even as I thought such things, whether from accumulated fatigue or relief, I fell asleep. But soon after, Dad came home, I woke up, and the three of us talked.


Maiban


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