I, Who Was Reincarnated as an Evil Character With Cheat-Level Stats in an Eroge, Will Live Freely in This Life
โSuzukaze Miku (side)
โKana, what on earthโฆโ
I muttered that to myself after getting home.
Kana said if I was worried about Kisaragi, I didn’t need to be careful around her, but why the sudden change?
I felt this strange feeling, and at the same time, my heart was pounding.
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I thought of Kisaragi as a friendโฆ At least, that’s how I felt when he first helped me.
I was grateful for his help, for saving meโฆ That was allโฆ I thought that was all it wasโฆ
โI wonder whyโฆโ
I couldn’t pinpoint exactly when it startedโฆ I couldn’t, but I found myself enjoying talking with Kisaragi more and more.
Besides Kana, Saki, and my family, Kisaragi was the first person I’d ever felt this comfortable spending time with.
When I heard Kana was dating him, I thought, โKisaragi’s a good guy, so I guess I don’t need to worry about Kana with him?โ That’s all I thought. But seeing Kana actually clinging to Kisaragi, I felt a flutter in my chestโฆ and it’s also true I felt envious. And the more time I spent watching the two of them, the stronger that feeling grew.
Even someone like me could tell when my heart started stirring that much. Even someone as insensitive to their own feelings as me could tell.
Iโฆ I realized I like him. The one who saved me, who changed me.
I felt a sense of security with him, who would risk himself to protect me. And that made me happy. He felt reliable.
I never thought I’d fall in love before meeting Kisaragiโฆ
But Kana seemed happy, and I thought that was enough. I stopped paying attention to that restlessnessโฆ or rather, I told myself I had to stop.
Even in a polygamous relationship, many women still have possessive feelings, after allโฆ
Yet Kana said those thingsโฆ
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Honestly, after Kana said that, I couldn’t look Kisaragi in the eye for a while.
In fact, I was aware I was hesitant to even talk to him.
I managed to sing a song to force myself to calm down, but I still remember that feeling.
The lid I’d kept closed for Kana’s sakeโฆ Kana had opened itโฆ
โSeriously, Kanaโฆโ
Even as I said that, my heart was pounding.
To be honest, I vaguely knew Saki cared about Kisaragi too.
Kana must have felt the same. And the feelings I thought I was hiding? Kana probably saw right through themโฆ
Otherwise, why would she say it deliberately in front of us?
โMe and Kisaragiโฆโ
Just imagining it made my heart pound even harder. And my heart felt warm.
I’m an only child, and I’d always thought I’d start a family and have kids someday. Of course, being scared of men, I couldn’t even imagine thatโฆ But what if it was him? Thinking about it, I didn’t feel any discomfort at all. It seemed incredibly fun. Like I could be really happy.
Would a man who made me feel this way ever appear in my futureโฆ? Honestly, when I thought about it, I didn’t feel like he would. I can’t imagine anyone else making me feel this secure.
After all, with any man other than Kisaragiโฆ
Thinking about it like that makes my own feelings even clearer.
I hugged my pillow tightly to calm myself down.
โHaaโฆ But it’s not something I can do right awayโฆโ
No matter how much Kana says it’s okay, I still want to sort things out for myself.
And above all, I don’t know how Kisaragi feels about me.
The way he treats me and talks to me is incredibly gentle, and I could tell, somehow, that he cared about me. I was drawn to that myself, after allโฆ
But I don’t know what kind of feelings that stems from.
โHaaโฆ I never thought I’d end up worrying about things like thisโฆโ
Thinking about things like this regarding a guyโit would’ve been unthinkable for me just a little while ago. But now, feelings like fluttering excitement, confusion, and anxiety are all tangled up inside me.
Even if I think I like him, it means nothing if Kisaragi feels differentlyโฆ In that case, maybe our current relationship is betterโฆ Thinking like that, even if Kana says it’s fine, I still can’t bring myself to act on it right away.
I really need to sort things out a bit more firstโฆ
I thought about it all, filled with hope, excitement, and unease.
โIt’s hotter than usual todayโฆโ
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โHiiragi Saki (side)
โKana-chanโฆโ
What Kana-chan said wouldn’t leave my mind.
If I have feelings for Kisaragi-kun, I shouldn’t worry about herโฆ Hearing that had really shaken me up.
I hadn’t thought my feelings were obvious, but I guess after spending so much time together, Kana-chan must have seen right through meโฆ
And because I couldn’t stop thinking about it, I actually overheard her on the way to bowling.
I heard what she meant by saying that.
But when I asked, she just smiled back at me. โIt’s just like I said!โ she repliedโฆ And Kana-chan didn’t say anything more. And I didn’t sense any deception in her expression at all. From that alone, it wasn’t hard to imagine she’d said it because she’d noticed our feelings.
I like Kisaragi-kun. I know that clearly now. If anything, I knew it from the moment he saved me back then.
But still, since he’s Kana-chan’s boyfriend, I’d been hiding those feelingsโฆ
With Kisaragi-kun, I get butterflies, but we can also chat happily.
I feel so many little thoughtful gestures from him, and he makes my heart race often.
And while I can say this now, it’s not weird to fall for a guy like Kisaragi-kun who protected me so coolly, like something out of a mangaโฆ From that moment, Kisaragi-kun became my hero and the object of my affection.
Plus, being with him feels so reassuringโฆ
โHaaโฆโ
I let out a deep sigh.
What should I do?
I like Kisaragi-kun. There’s no mistake about that. And even if Kana-chan allowed it, I still don’t have the courage to tell Kisaragi-kun.
Besides, Kisaragi-kun is incredibly kind and cool, but there’s a chance he only thinks of me as a friend.
I’ve finally gotten to the point where I can talk normally with Kisaragi-kun. If I get rejected, I might not be able to talk to him anymore.ใ
Actually, I tried a little harder at bowling today, but that was my limit right now.
I touched Kisaragi-kun’s hand, but because of what Kana-chan said, my heart was pounding like crazy. I managed to teach him somehow, but I thought my heart couldn’t handle holding hands.
If Kisaragi-kun pressed close to me like he did when he protected me back then, my heart probably wouldn’t be able to take it.
Because realizing I like him now is completely different from back thenโฆ
For someone like me to confess my feelings to Kisaragi-kunโฆ
I buried my bright red face in my pillow.
โBut Miku-chan tooโฆโ
I knew Miku-chan cared about Kisaragi-kun too. She doesn’t show it much, but she looks so happy when she talks to Kisaragi-kunโฆ Kana-chan probably understood that too.
Miku-chan and Kisaragi-kun would be so perfect togetherโฆ
Of course, Kana-chan and Kisaragi-kun are perfect together too, but Miku-chan and Kisaragi-kun would be perfect together as well.
They’re both good-looking and have great grades. They’re always first and second in the classโฆ If Miku-chan said she liked him, Kisaragi-kun would probably accept herโฆ That’s how well-suited they are.
What would happen if Miku-chan and Kisaragi-kun started datingโฆ The three of them dating, excluding meโฆ Just thinking about it makes my chest ache.
I should be happy they’re happy, but it still hurts.
I guess I should try harder too, to be with Kisaragi-kunโฆ
Maiban