I’m Incompetent and a Failure, and My Childhood Friend, Who Is a Beautiful Kyoto Dialect Vice President Idol on the Outside but in Reality Is a Menhera Yandere, Is Dependent on Me, but Please, Leave Me Alone!
The interview with Kosaka’s father was a turning point for me.
I don’t have to walk next to Akemi.
I could walk behind her and support her.
I might even be able to do that.
I was ready.
All I have to do is to support her in the way I want.
There’s no need to get all worked up.
Besides, even such a respectable adult had the same feelings, anguish, and distress as I did, and yet he was still able to live so honorably…and live with his family.
I was just proud to be told by such a person that he wanted to entrust Akemi to me.
I don’t know if it was because of that…
Still…for some reason, I felt as if I had been forgiven.
The next day, I was heading to school with Akemi as usual.
Akemi said to me out of the blue
“Did something good happen? Today’s Akiru…he’s a little different from usual…”
“Is that so…?”
“I think you’re not upset when you’re with me anymore?”
“I don’t think so?”
“I can understand how much I’ve seen of you… I’m sure that talking to father meant a lot to Akiru.”
“I see.. yeah… maybe…”
“I’m glad…….”
Maybe that’s why I don’t get nervous when Akemi is around like usual, and in fact, I’m able to interact with her with more confidence.
Being able to gain confidence in being alone is definitely a positive thing for me, but there are many people at this school who don’t find that interesting.
Like these people.
“Tadano kun? I’ve told you many times to stay away from Kosaka-san, right? Don’t you understand? Don’t you get it?”
“You don’t match her and you’re annoying? Don’t you get it?”
“We’re saying this for Tadano kun’s sake, too.”
In front of me are girls from a faction I don’t understand who follow Akemi… They have been shooting at me when I’m alone for some time now.
In the past, I would run for cover, and if I got caught, I would keep my mouth shut and put up with them until they got their way.
The boys who are after Akemi are troublesome, but this faction of Akemi followers is troublesome enough.
But now I have the courage to say what I want to say to them as well.
“Sorry, but I’m not going to listen to you guys… I’m Akemi’s boyfriend and I want to be her boyfriend… I don’t expect you guys to approve of me, nor do I want to be approved of!I don’t need that to make me feel like I love Akemi.”
“Haa? What is this guy? Is he really gross…or is he just stupid?”
“Gross! He’s really disgusting!”
“Poor Akemi chan! She’s being followed around by this no-good guy!”
“Say what you want! Akemi and I are in a relationship of our own volition! I don’t need you people telling me what to do!”
“You’re being so open and stupid!”
“Shall we go? I don’t want to deal with this creep.”
The girls disappeared somewhere in the school building while complaining.
I patted my chest.
I used to be thinking that I wasn’t good enough for Akemi, that I didn’t deserve to be next to her, and I couldn’t afford to worry about Akemi herself because of the way people looked at her.
Looking back, I thought I was thinking about Akemi, but in reality I was only thinking about my own self-preservation.
There was no way I could balance that with Akemi.
I was running around saying that I was not worthy of her because I was not smart enough… because I was inferior to her in terms of endurance and physical strength even though I was a man… because I was not good enough or did not have a good memory… and so on.
I’ve learned that it all depends on how you feel, and that’s why I’m here now, but it’s fate that it was her father who made me realize that.
Her parents also support me.
I was so proud and happy.
But I had overlooked something important.
The true nature of Akemi.
Why she was so obsessed with a useless man like me….
After all, I had not realized the reason until now….
I would have regretted thinking about it a little more, but there was no way I could have thought of that at the time, because I was not very good at it….
“I have plans today, so I can’t go home with you, sorry?”
“Ah …… um…yeah…”
“Well, get ready and go home, okay?”
Akemi apparently has things she has to do at school, and as an officer of the student council, she is basically very busy.
So it’s no wonder she often goes home alone.
However, it is obviously strange.
I can understand if it is just an occasional day.
But recently, it has been all the time.
She has been refusing to be with me for some reason or another.
She used to hold study sessions for me even though I didn’t ask her to….
She brought me lunch at lunchtime and we ate it together.
Despite the jealous stares and abuse from those around us, she still treated me the same way.
And yet, lately, she no longer clings to me like she used to.
Just when I decided to treat her positively and cherish her, this happened.
I don’t want to doubt her… but…
I think she’s cheating on me…isn’t she?
It’s a common theme in erotic manga about cuckolds…she refuses her boyfriend’s advances and secretly makes love to his lover….
I thought so, and I could assure you that it was impossible.
She is not interested in love.
She probably wasn’t even really interested in me, her boyfriend.
I must have known that.
That is why I was not happy when she asked me to be her lover.
It is true that it was hard for me to be in a relationship with her while being exposed to jealous stares, abusive comments, etc., but the hardest part was the feeling of being in a relationship with her.
But the most painful thing was to continue the relationship with her without feelings.
I couldn’t find any meaning in continuing this kind of relationship.
Will she abandon me someday?
I fear that one day she will get tired of me…
I had been exposed to such impatience and sense of crisis for a long time….
So it was not surprising that this day would come….
I just wasn’t prepared for it….
“Akemi, today… well…”
“Aah~ I’ve been called by the teacher today and I have to help her rearrange the shelves, so you go home first.”
“I-I’ll help you too…”
“No problem, it’ll just take longer if you’re here, and I’ll finish faster if I’m alone.”
“Ugh…….”
“…………, are you finished? I want to finish my work and go home soon too. I don’t have time to spend all my time dealing with you.”
It’s as if she’s pushing me away, a distinct difference from her previous ones.
Still …… I was… scared, but I had to make myself clear.
“Then, you know, after school is over?”
“……… what is it? you’re stalking me now? You’re annoying me?”
“Ugh…”
Don’t run away…
I can’t stand to be bothered with something I don’t understand as it is.
I decided to ask her.
“You used to wait for me like a stalker, didn’t you? It’s mutual, isn’t it?”
“Hee~…I really…don’t like it…you lately…..okay, then come over around 6pm…I’ll tell you…about me…”
Her true feelings.