I’m Incompetent and a Failure, and My Childhood Friend, Who Is a Beautiful Kyoto Dialect Vice President Idol on the Outside but in Reality Is a Menhera Yandere, Is Dependent on Me, but Please, Leave Me Alone!
I have a boy who qualifies as a childhood friend.
That boy is just a no good at everything he does.
He has always been bad at everything. I was always surprised that he could fail at such a simple thing.
It has become a matter of course for me to take care of my childhood friend.
He was like a little brother to me.
But I don’t know when it started, but when I saw him make a face like he was about to cry… when I saw him make a frustrated face… when he stared at me…
I began to feel warmth in my body.
I don’t know why.
When I saw that child about to cry, I felt a pain that crushed my heart and at the same time, I can’t describe it in words…it was as if electricity was flowing through my body.
People around me compare us.
How can you take care of him, Akemi, you’re so kind, I couldn’t do it~
Don’t spoil him just because you’ve known him since childhood, okay~?
Men will take advantage of you~
He’s taking advantage of the fact that he’s Kosaka-chan’s childhood friend, isn’t he? I wish I was Kosaka-chan’s childhood friend~
Everyone compares me to my childhood friend and says we don’t match up.
They accuse him of being a parasite just because he’s my childhood friend.
I have always been the complete opposite of my childhood friend, a kid who could handle everything with ease.
I could do almost anything once I heard about it, and I have never had much trouble with anything.
I am a woman, so my arm strength is inferior to that of boys.
I have a hard time moving heavy things, but the boys nearby helped me without me having to say a word.
In the past, it was Aki kun who used to do it for me.
For me, being able to do this is something normal.
It is amazing to be able to do something so normaly! It doesn’t make me happy to be told that I’m doing a great job.
People flock around me.
I am aware that I am good-looking and popular.
That’s why people gather around me.
People who flatter me and show their affection for me.
Shallow people who try to gain my protection with the immunity of being my friend.
People who approach me to become my lover and show off my value.
None of them are worthless.
There is no value in any of them.
But not Aki-kun.
He doesn’t praise me.
He does not flatter me.
He doesn’t depend on me.
He tries to challenge me even though his talent, tact, memory, and physical strength are all below average.
He gives me a glare.
At first, that made me happy.
It made me feel like he was seeing me as I really am.
So I tried my best to respond to him.
That didn’t work.
He broke down.
He ran away from me.
He started to distance himself from me.
I was lonely.
I was sad.
But one day.
I realized.
The emotions he directs at me.
Jealousy, hatred, envy, longing,
When those mixed and muddled feelings were revealed on his face, he would make a really good face.
My heart pounded.
I felt warmth in the depths of my body and heat in my face.
One part of my body gets all mushy and I realize I’m in heat.
I am aware that I am a pervert.
But I can’t stop it.
I feel sorry for Aki-kun.
But when I look at his face, I feel an irresistible rush.
I can’t stand it.
I want him to show me his face more.
Because you are mine and mine alone.
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“If you do this, maybe the next test will be a little better?”
“Thanks…………”
“Fufu…You’re welcome.”
It is normal to thank someone for teaching you how to study.
It is common sense as a human being, no matter how much you don’t like it.
Even if you are despised as an idiot or incompetent, you don’t want to lose at least a minimum level of courtesy.
The study ended without a hitch, and Akemi went home looking satisfied.
Mother insisted that I take her home, even though her house was next door.
I was going to take her home even if she didn’t tell me to.
Even though it was a short distance, Akemi was so good looking that it was no wonder she could be attacked.
But even if she did, I doubt I would be able to save her, and she wouldn’t screw up like that in the first place.
But if she were to be attacked by a pervert, and I were able to save her, it would be a very satisfying moment, and I would be in Kosaka Akemi’s favor.
Even if it was indirectly, I won against him…Wouldn’t that be considered a victory…?
It’s not that I want to owe her anything.
I don’t know what I’m doing with her…..
At the very least, it would satisfy my need for approval.
Akemi is the apple of my eye.
To be honest, there was a time when I was in love with her.
Akemi was the only person who stood by my side.
And my childhood friend who stood by my side is a beautiful, eye-catching girl.
How could I not be attracted to her?
But I soon realized that it was hubris, that I was not worthy of her.
To her, I was just an acquaintance who lived in the neighborhood, and I guess she was just trying to get her hands on me because she had a rotten relationship with me or something like that.
First of all, there is too much of a difference in our abilities, including academic ability, so being together is a torture in itself.
If we were together, we would be compared, and the fact that we were childhood friends accelerated that.
In junior high school, I tried my best to show her how cool I was, even though I shouldn’t have done so… and as a result, I continued to be a miserable abomination.
People around me ridiculed me.
I was ridiculed, looked down upon, and made fun of.
Remembering the look on Akemi’s face at that time was a traumatic experience for me.
Above all, I was a mental of a fish and could not stand the backbiting from those around me.
So I ran away.
I didn’t want to stand up to them.
I was desperate to protect my heart.
Since then, Akemi has never paid me any attention, and she seems to be enjoying herself surrounded by the top caste
I thought that I had been eliminated from her mind.
I thought I had disappeared.
That’s why I don’t understand.
Why now?…..