I’m Incompetent and a Failure, and My Childhood Friend, Who Is a Beautiful Kyoto Dialect Vice President Idol on the Outside but in Reality Is a Menhera Yandere, Is Dependent on Me, but Please, Leave Me Alone!
I was wrapped up in the futon on the bed in my room, remembering yesterday.
It was the study session with Aki-kun.
His expression had changed rapidly in just two hours, which had excited me greatly.
The fact that he was being taught by me seemed humiliating to him, and he kept a difficult expression on his face.
However, he understood more than anyone else that he was inferior to me in every way, so he couldn’t resist the rationale of being taught to study, and he had such a pained expression on his face.
His eyebrows were bent in a figure of eight, his cheeks were red with frustration, his eyes were bloodshot as if he was about to cry, and he was clenching his teeth.
That kind of face would have been too much for me.
After returning to my room, I had to do it several times.
I am fed up with my impure and slutty self, but I can’t stop myself.
Even now, in the short time I have before going to school in the morning, I comfort myself by thinking of Aki-kun’s face.
From today, we will go to school together.
I’ve made up my mind, I won’t put up with it anymore.
“Well…I can’t hold back anymore…”
I muttered to myself in my private room, where I am alone
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I hate mornings.
I hate it when I see the sun shining brightly, and everything becomes bothersome when I see a cloudy sky.
If it’s raining, I feel depressed and want to stay indoors.
Every time I think about skipping school and going somewhere to have fun, but when I think about the risk of being caught, I start to wonder if that’s a good idea, too.
“You! I bet Akemi chan has a feeling for you! Go for it!”
“Haa?”
When I’m feeling depressed in the morning, my mother says something like that to me in a high tension.
She’s so selfish that she doesn’t even know what people are thinking.
I’d rather eat breakfast in peace and quiet, but mother is so eager to get to the bottom of what’s so fun about it.
“She’s been asking me about you a lot, and she really came over yesterday, too, and I’m sure she likes you.”
“Oh? Oh, yeah?”
“Yes! I’m sure of it!”
“Oh, yeah! I’d love to be called father or something like that by such a cute girl too~, so try a little harder, Akiru! Hahaha!”
“Mouu~, you really are an idiot!”
The selfish happy time between my father and mother continued.
It’s really selfish.
They don’t even know what people are thinking….
I left the house in a depressed mood and headed for school.
I was about to head to school when…
“Good morning, Aki kun…well, I think you should leave the house a little earlier than usual, don’t you?”
An unexpected person was waiting for me.
The next-door neighbor.
A beautiful girl who is one of the idols of the school.
She is a brilliant student who became vice-president of the school in the first year.
“Ak….. Kosaka…san…?”
“Why do you go to the trouble of changing back to calling me by my first name when you’re already calling me Akemi~?”
“Ugh, ……, why Kosaka-san…?”
“Let’s go to school together with Aki-kun from today, okay? It’s good right?”
“Whaa… Don’t play around!”
“I’m not playing around you know?”
Akemi had been goofing around before, but in an instant she stared at me with a straight face.
Her eyes are so beautiful that they remind me of crystals.
However, I do not fall in love with her.
I am afraid with her face, which was so well-developed that it almost sucked me in, looked like a mask.
“W.why…?”
“Yeah?”
“Why is Kosaka-san following me now…?”
“Well…? I wonder why~? Okay! Let’s go to school soon quickly”
Kosaka Akemi walks in front of me with a smile on her face.
Her long, shiny black hair sways as she walks.
Her black hair, which reflects the light and looks silvery, is so beautiful that I almost fall in love with it, but I dare to take my eyes off of it.
It’s not a feast for the eyes.
It is poison.
A poison that is so powerful that once you’ve been seduced and enchanted by it, you’re hooked.
I don’t want to be anywhere near it.
I can’t reach it…it’s something I can’t reach….
I need it to be so.
I’m being followed by Kosaka Akemi…
I know it’s a bit self-conscious of me to say so, but there are multiple concerns that could arise from being followed by Kosaka Akemi, and one of them could be this.
“Why is he…?”
“Look at that…”
“You’ve got to be kidding me….”
“He’s a mob…”
When Akemi is next to me, I am subjected to hostile stares and abusive language from the students in the school.
There are no gender barriers there.
A mob is a mob because it is a mob.
They shouldn’t stand out.
When you stand out and assert yourself, you are no longer a mob.
I want to be a mob.
I don’t want to stand out.
I don’t have any particular trauma that made me think this way.
It’s just how I felt.
When I was a child…I started being compared to Akemi from around the lower grades of elementary school, and I was told more and more that I was a little boy compared to Akemi…I naturally thought that I was a mob. I feel like I’m starting to understand it…
Even Akemi would have more fun with someone who is on the same level as her than someone like me….
I thought that’s why she stopped getting involved with me after high school, but why now…?
I don’t understand what Akemi is thinking.
Anyway, I was dismayed to think that I would have to spend the whole day under her gaze.