The Issue With Her Arrow Pointing at Me Being Way Too Big
“………….”
After the study session ended, I waited for Ayaka at the school gate.
She said she’d be there after using the restroom, so here I am waiting alone… but I had something on my mind.
It was because Ayaka had been unusually quiet during today’s study session.
“…It started after I mentioned Asumi, right?”
We talked about Mikuni-senpai, and the conversation turned to Asumi.
I’d noticed a change in Ayaka’s demeanor then, and since, she’d become less talkative—not drastically, but noticeably so.
I did tell her that Asumi no longer held any ill will toward Ayaka, and had even said she’d like an opportunity to apologize… but anyway, I’d ask Ayaka for details once she arrived.
“Sorry to keep you waiting, Amato-kun.”
With that, Ayaka returned.
Her vibe… was reassuringly normal, but I still couldn’t shake the feeling there was something in her gaze… Anyway, let’s get away from school.
After walking for a while, I brought up the topic.
“Hey, Ayaka.”
“What?”
“…Ever since we talked about Asumi, haven’t you been in a bad mood?”
“Huh? Really?”
Ayaka tilted her head, but her expression wasn’t smiling at all.
This… is it jealousy?
That said, I know full well I’m not the kind of guy girls get jealous of… But considering how close Ayaka and I are, it’s probably safe to assume this is jealousy on her part.
“We talked it out enough that there shouldn’t be any lingering hard feelings. But really, that’s all it was. I was worried about you, Ayaka… Well, there’s nothing to worry about.”
“I… I… Yeah… Sorry, Amato-kun.”
“No, you don’t need to apologize.”
“…You’ve been bothered by it, haven’t you? Yeah… I didn’t like it when you talked about other girls… Sorry.”
“…It’s totally fine.”
This way of saying it… I’m not pretending to be thick-skinned.
Like our past interactions, I’m not the type to think a girl who lets me touch her chest doesn’t feel anything for me.
Ayaka… Ugh, seriously! Experience is important for everything, but what the hell am I supposed to do in this situation?!
“Hey, Amato-kun?”
“What…?”
I forced myself to stop thinking and focus on talking with Ayaka.
When I looked back at her, the mood from before—that annoyed expression—had vanished, replaced by something shy.
“This week… my parents won’t be home.”
“Oh… yeah…”
W-wait, could this be…!?
“…Want to come over and stay!?”
“…Huh?”
…Huh?
Wait a minute… What did she just say? I clearly heard “my parents won’t be home,” but did she say “come over”? Like, come over to hang out!?
“Hang out…?”
“Stay over…?”
“…What?”
“So… I was wondering if you’d like to come over and stay the night.”
Stay over… as in sleep over!?
I wanted to yell, “What the hell are you talking about all of a sudden?!” and I hadn’t fully processed her words… but my curiosity got the better of me again.
Just like when I touched Ayaka’s chest… I know it’s a problem, but the chance to sleep over at a girl’s house… especially someone I’m close with? I’d totally want to go!!
“Amato-kun, aren’t you interested?”
“Huh…?”
“A girl’s house… not interested? I’ll make you dinner and stuff?”
“A-a girl’s home cooking…”
“We could sleep in the same room at night… you know?”
What… what am I being asked right now?
Unlike me, who’s flustered, why can Ayaka invite me so cheerfully…?
What she thinks, what I think… putting that aside for now, it’s just that I want to experience something I’m curious about… I’m nodding for that reason alone!?
“If you come to my place… I’ll let you touch my boobs again?”
“…”
“Somewhere no one can interrupt us… somewhere it’s just me and you, Amato… How does that sound?”
“……………”
I’m… just an idiot.
If I nodded to something like this, it would obviously mean I’d lost to my curiosity… it would reveal I’d lost to Ayaka’s body… and worse, it would show I’m the kind of person who can’t refuse that kind of thing. And yet, I nodded.
“…Is that okay?”
“Sure, come on.”
“Then… I’ll intrude.”
Call it being at that age… I wanted to spend time with a girl if I could.
Unable to suppress that desire… yet tinged with a hint of regret, wondering if I’d gone too far, I chose to go to Ayaka’s house.
“Going to a girl’s house… What should I bring?”
“…Pfft! That’s funny, Amato-kun.”
“Don’t laugh! I’m freaking out about doing this for the first time, okay!?”
Ayaka laughed heartily, but I’d already stepped onto a path with no turning back.
This Friday… After school ends, I’ll go home first, then head to Ayaka’s place… Even though it’s still a few days away, my heart was already pounding like crazy.
“…Ayaka’s house… huh.”
Even though I know it’s wrong, being alone with her at her place… imagining it makes me think things.
Like… I might make a move on her when she’s vulnerable.
“…What is gonna happen?”
For now… I’ll go home and calm down.
Maiasa