Episode 6 – self-proclaimed


The Schoolโ€™s Top Idol Is Acting Like Sheโ€™s My Childhood Friend for Some Reason and Just Keeps Closing the Distance on Her Ownโ€ฆ?! ~Stop Getting All Gloomy on Me Just Because I Turned You Down!~


The Next Day.

The morning after the entrance ceremony, I woke up a little earlier than usual.

The morning sun streaming through the gap in the curtains mercilessly illuminated the mess of my room. Tissues scattered on the floor. A hoodie left lying around. A tower of manga and stacks of cards piled high on my desk. Until yesterday, it had been just my room, but today, for some reason, it looked like a place to escape to.

I didnโ€™t want to go to school.

To be precise, it wasnโ€™t that I disliked school itself. The problem was that Hoshimiya Rino was there.

The schoolโ€™s top idol. No, to be exact, she was already a famous idol appearing on TV and in advertisements. And for some reason, Hoshimiya treated me like we were childhood friends.

Yesterday, I thought Iโ€™d made it clear.

Weโ€™re not childhood friends. Itโ€™s fine if you talk to me normally. Iโ€™m sure I said that.

Yet, among my classmates, the idea that โ€œTakahara Seita and Hoshimiya Rino have a childhood-friend-like relationshipโ€ had already taken root in about half of them. Not just halfโ€”by the time noon passed, it might have even grown to the point where people were saying, โ€œApparently, theyโ€™ve actually had a special relationship for a long time.โ€

Rumors grow faster than mold in a damp place.

I let out a deep sigh as I changed into my school uniform.

In a romance comedy manga or anime, this would be a juicy plot twist. The school idol takes a liking only to the unremarkable protagonist. The people around them buzz with speculation, and while heโ€™s confused, they gradually grow closer.

On the other side of the screen, thatโ€™s my favorite kind of story.

But when it happens in real life, itโ€™s the first thing that hits me in the gut.

I stuffed my textbooks into my bag, checked to make sure the hoodie sheโ€™d given back to me yesterday was inside, and left the room. I donโ€™t even know why I checked. But I just couldnโ€™t bring myself to leave it behind.

I put on my shoes at the entrance and stepped outside.

The spring morning was just a little colder than yesterday. A thin layer of cherry blossom petals had settled on the walls of the residential neighborhood, and I could hear the voices of students on their way to school in the distance. Blending in with them, I checked my phone for the latest release info on School Romantic Comedy Doesnโ€™t Need Youth!!, commonly known as No Youth Needed.

The release date is this Sunday.

I also plan to go to the card shop on Saturday, the day before. I need to round out the cards missing from my current deck. My monthly allowance is 5,000 yen. Balancing the new romance comedy volume with my card collection requires a budget allocation as meticulous as a national budget.

As I was thinking about all that, the school gate came into view.

My feet felt a little heavy.

If I walk through that gate, something troublesome might happen again. No, itโ€™s not just โ€œmight happen.โ€ With Hoshimiya there, the probability of something happening is high.

It was just then, as I paused for a moment in front of the school gate.

โ€œGood morning, Seita.โ€

A voice I didnโ€™t want to hear came from behind me.

I turned around.

Hoshimiya was standing there.

Her long hair, bathed in the morning sun, glowed a pale brown. Her uniform should have been the same as yesterdayโ€™s, but when she wore it, it looked like a brand-new advertisement. Every student passing by turned to look at her at least once.

But that wasnโ€™t the first thing that caught my eye.

Her shoulders were rising and falling ever so slightly.

She hadnโ€™t been running. Yet, it was the strained breathing of someone whoโ€™d been waiting for someone to finally show up.

โ€œGood morning, Hoshimiya-san.โ€

I couldnโ€™t quite meet her gaze and shifted my eyes slightly to the side.

Then, Hoshimiyaโ€™s cheeks puffed out slightly.

โ€œHey, look at me properly.โ€

โ€œI am looking.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re not. Seita, youโ€™re looking at my shoulders.โ€

Sheโ€™d caught me.

Celebritiesโ€™ powers of observation are scary.

Reluctantly, I looked at her face, and Hoshimiya narrowed her eyes in satisfaction. Just that alone made the morning scene in front of the school gate feel strangely bright. I felt like the stares from those around us had grown even sharper.

โ€œWeโ€™re childhood friends, you know?โ€

โ€œNo, weโ€™re not childhood friendsโ€”โ€

The moment I started to say that, Hoshimiyaโ€™s expression froze.

It wasnโ€™t that her smile had vanished.

It was just that the warmth around her eyes suddenly receded deep inside. Her lips parted slightly as if to say something, but then closed again. Only the tips of her fingers gripping her bagโ€™s handle tightened slightly.

It was a subtle change.

But I could tell, watching her up close.

Hoshimiya isnโ€™t used to breaking down in front of others. So she tries not to. Behind her composed facade, her breathing grows just a little shallower.

That made it all the more troublesome.

It would be easier if she just got angry.

It would be easier for me to respond if she just vented her frustration.

Instead, she remains silent, creating a void that looks like sheโ€™s been hurt. The stares of those around her fill that void on their own.

Even now, students passing through the school gate were glancing this way. Hoshimiya is being rejected by a boy she doesnโ€™t know. Thatโ€™s probably how the scene looks to them.

Itโ€™s the worst.

โ€œUm, it was just a coincidence that I helped you, Hoshimiya-san. So, thatโ€ฆโ€

โ€œIf it was a coincidence, does that mean it never happened?โ€

Hoshimiyaโ€™s voice was quiet.

โ€œHuh?โ€

โ€œIf it was a coincidence, does that mean the fact that Seita came to my aid, picked up my manga, and didnโ€™t ask my nameโ€”does all of that just become nothing?โ€

I felt the morning air grow a little heavier.

She wasnโ€™t speaking in a tone of accusation. If anything, she was choosing her words carefully. But because of that, every single one of them cut strangely deep.

โ€œTo me, none of it was nothing.โ€

Hoshimiya said that and lowered her gaze to my bag.

As if she knew the hoodie Iโ€™d returned yesterday was inside.

โ€œSeita, youโ€™re quick to draw a line, arenโ€™t you? Like, โ€˜Please donโ€™t come any closer.โ€™ You run away the moment I get near you.โ€

โ€œWellโ€ฆ thatโ€™s normal. Anyone would run away if a celebrity they just met started treating them like a childhood friend.โ€

โ€œBut you didnโ€™t run away, Seita. Not from those people that day.โ€

I couldnโ€™t think of a reply.

Hoshimiya took a step closer.

Sheโ€™s close.

Iโ€™ve been thinking this since yesterday, but the way this person closes the distance is clearly off. Right in front of the school gate, with students on their way to class all around us, she just casually touches my sleeve.

Her fingertips pinched the sleeve of my uniform.

โ€œI like that about Seita.โ€

โ€œ-โ€ฆโ€

The air around us seemed to shudder.

No, my heart shuddered too.

Right in front of the school gate in the morning, the schoolโ€™s top idol told a plain-looking boy, โ€œI like you.โ€ And she said it while pinching his sleeve. Thereโ€™s no doubt that rumors are exploding in the minds of the students who witnessed this.

โ€œHoshimiya-san, saying it like that could be misunderstoodโ€”โ€

โ€œItโ€™s not a misunderstanding.โ€

Hoshimiya answered immediately.

It was so direct.

So straightforward that I was the one who wanted to look away.

โ€œBut since itโ€™d be too much for you right now, Seita, Iโ€™m just treating us as childhood friends.โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re โ€˜doing me a favorโ€™?โ€

โ€œYeah. Because if weโ€™re childhood friends, it doesnโ€™t seem weird for me to be by your side, right?โ€

That logic was flawed.

It was flawed, yet Hoshimiya looked completely serious.

No, it was precisely because she was serious that it was flawed.

In her mind, what happened that day has become something definitive. Just because I saved her once, just because I didnโ€™t ask her name that one time, sheโ€™s trying to create a reason to stand by my side.

Even using a nonexistent past as โ€œchildhood friends.โ€

โ€œโ€ฆWell then, at least within the school, Iโ€™ll go along with the childhood friends act.โ€

Iโ€™d lost.

I lost to the stares of those around us, to Hoshimiyaโ€™s fingertips, and above all, to the slight tremor lingering around her eyes.

Hoshimiya froze for just a moment.

Then, her expression brightened instantly.

It wasnโ€™t a forced smile. It was a completely vulnerable face, like a child whoโ€™d been given an unexpected gift. The light returned to her eyes more clearly than the morning sun.

โ€œReally?โ€

โ€œJust at school. And please donโ€™t say anything weird to anyone else.โ€

โ€œYeah. Iโ€™ll be careful.โ€

โ€œReally?โ€

โ€œAs childhood friends, Iโ€™ll make sure to keep a proper distance.โ€

โ€œWeโ€™re not childhood friends, though.โ€

โ€œNot yet, anyway.โ€

โ€œโ€˜Not yetโ€™ isnโ€™t right either.โ€

Hoshimiya laughed happily.

Her fingertips, which had been clutching her sleeve just a moment ago, now naturally rested beside mine. They werenโ€™t touching. But they were close enough that they could touch at any moment.

We passed through the school gates.

The stares from those around us stung.

Hoshimiya seemed used to those stares; she walked with her head held high. But I noticed something. She was walking half a step behind me.

The same position as yesterday, when she hid behind me in the hallway on the way to the gym.

Even though sheโ€™s a top idol and should be used to being the center of attention, she sometimes tries to hide behind me.

And yet, the moment I try to walk away, she tugs at my sleeve.

Sheโ€™s such a pain.

Sheโ€™s a pain, but I canโ€™t bring myself to ignore her.

โ€œHey, Seita.โ€

โ€œWhat is it?โ€

โ€œDo you have plans this Sunday?โ€

I had a bad feeling.

โ€œYes.โ€

โ€œAn immediate answer.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m planning to buy the latest volume of โ€˜I Donโ€™t Need Youth.โ€™โ€

Hoshimiyaโ€™s eyes lit up.

Damn it.

Iโ€™d given her the bait.

โ€œIโ€™m buying it too.โ€

โ€œI figured.โ€

โ€œLetโ€™s go buy it together?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m not going.โ€

Hoshimiya stopped in her tracks.

I stopped a step behind her.

Here we go again.

She remained smiling, but fell silent for a few seconds. Her gaze dropped from me to the ground. In the morning light, her long eyelashes cast a shadow. Even though the corners of her lips were turned up, it looked as if only her smile had been left behind.

โ€œโ€ฆI see.โ€

It was a quiet voice.

She was too close for me to pretend I hadnโ€™t heard her.

I pressed my hand to my forehead.

โ€œNo, Sunday wonโ€™t work. Iโ€™m going to the card shop on Saturday, so Iโ€™ve got to figure out my budget and stuff.โ€

โ€œCard shop.โ€

Hoshimiya looked up.

A different light shone in her eyes, which had just moments ago been so downcast.

โ€œSeita, you play card games?โ€

โ€œYeah, I do.โ€

โ€œIโ€™ll learn too.โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€

โ€œBecause I want to know the things you like.โ€

She said it straight to my face.

Again, a few people around us looked over.

My head started to ache.

โ€œHoshimiya-san, thatโ€™s a bit much.โ€

The moment I said it, her fingertips froze.

This is bad.

I thought that, but the words were already out.

Hoshimiya was looking at me.

It was different from before. This time, it took her a little while to compose herself. Something flickered deep in her eyes, and her lips trembled slightly. But no tears fell. She probably would never, ever cry in front of others.

Instead, she smiled.

It was a beautiful, faint smile.

โ€œโ€ฆI see. Itโ€™s a burden.โ€

โ€œNo, the way I put that just nowโ€ฆโ€

โ€œItโ€™s okay. Iโ€™ll make sure itโ€™s not heavy enough for Seita to hate me.โ€

โ€œThat method of adjusting it is already scary.โ€

โ€œThen Iโ€™ll cut it in half.โ€

โ€œWhat?โ€

โ€œThe time I spend thinking about Seita.โ€

It wasnโ€™t a joking tone.

I didnโ€™t know how to respond.

Hoshimiya saw my confusion and tilted her head slightly.

โ€œBut even if I cut it in half, Iโ€™ll probably still be thinking about Seita most of the time Iโ€™m awake.โ€

โ€œWhat do you mean, โ€˜halfโ€™?โ€

โ€œI see him in my dreams while Iโ€™m asleep, so thatโ€™s a separate category.โ€

โ€œScary, scary, scary.โ€

My true feelings slipped out before I could stop them.

Hoshimiyaโ€™s eyes widened for just a moment, then she covered her mouth and laughed.

Finally, the atmosphere lightened a little.

This girl is dangerous.

But she isnโ€™t gloomy all the time. Amidst the heaviness, thereโ€™s a mix of strange jokes and charm. Because of that, itโ€™s hard to completely push her away. If there were different kinds of โ€œtroublesome,โ€ Hoshimiya Rino would be the most troublesome type.

โ€œThen, Iโ€™ll hold back on Saturday.โ€

โ€œPlease hold off on Sunday, too.โ€

โ€œWe might just happen to run into each other at the bookstore on Sunday.โ€

โ€œYou just made that โ€˜coincidenceโ€™ a reservation, didnโ€™t you?โ€

โ€œWeโ€™re childhood friends, so our routines tend to overlap.โ€

โ€œSo please donโ€™t use that trope so conveniently.โ€

Exchanging banter like that, we headed toward the entrance.

Even while we were changing our shoes, the stares from those around us never let up. Hoshimiya, while straightening her loafers, suddenly glanced at my bag.

โ€œYou brought a hoodie for me.โ€

โ€œYeah, wellโ€ฆ just on a whim.โ€

โ€œOn a whim.โ€

Hoshimiya repeated those words as if they were precious.

Then, she leaned her face slightly toward my ear.

โ€œWell then, Iโ€™ll borrow it if I get scared.โ€

โ€œDo you ever get scared at school?โ€

โ€œYeah.โ€

Hoshimiya looked down the hallway.

There, students were watching her. Eyes filled with curiosity, admiration, and scrutiny. Taking it all in, she smiled beautifully.

โ€œWhen Seita looks like heโ€™s about to say he doesnโ€™t need me.โ€

Something strange tightened deep in my chest.

โ€œI donโ€™t need you.โ€

I have not said those words.

But inside her, my refusals must surely sound very close to that. โ€œWeโ€™re not childhood friends.โ€ โ€œWeโ€™re not dating.โ€ โ€œI wonโ€™t go with you.โ€ Each of those statements reaches her ears, little by little, sounding more and more like โ€œI donโ€™t need you.โ€

This is a hassle.

Itโ€™s really a hassle.

But if I treat her roughly here, sheโ€™ll just put on that faint smile again.

I tightened my grip on my backpack strap.

โ€œI didnโ€™t say I donโ€™t want you.โ€

Hoshimiya looked at me.

โ€œItโ€™s just that youโ€™re moving too fast.โ€

โ€œSo, is it okay if I go slow?โ€

โ€œIf it were normal, yes.โ€

โ€œLetโ€™s just be normal childhood friends, slowly.โ€

โ€œThat last part doesnโ€™t make sense.โ€

Hoshimiya gave a small laugh.

This time, that smile was genuinely warm.

As we entered the classroom, the atmosphere changed, just as Iโ€™d expected.

A few classmates glanced our way, then quickly looked away. Yesterdayโ€™s rumors had definitely had time to ferment. And since weโ€™d walked in together through the school gate this morning, theyโ€™d only grown stronger.

I headed for my seat.

Hoshimiya sat down next to me.

The moment I sat down, the boy in the seat in front of me turned around.

โ€œGood morning, Takahara. Did you come to school with Hoshimiya-san?โ€

โ€œIt was a coincidence.โ€

As soon as I answered, Hoshimiyaโ€™s voice overlapped from beside me.

โ€œWeโ€™re childhood friends.โ€

The classroom erupted into a buzz of commotion in an instant.

I wanted to bury my face in my desk.

โ€œHoshimiya-san.โ€

โ€œWhat?โ€

โ€œI told you to be careful, didnโ€™t I?โ€

โ€œYou did. Thatโ€™s why I only said โ€˜becauseโ€™ weโ€™re childhood friends.โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s exactly the problem.โ€

The boy in the seat in front of us was grinning as he looked over at us.

The girls around us were clearly eavesdropping too.

Hoshimiya looked completely unfazed. But under the desk, she was pinching the sleeve of my uniform.

In a place where no one could see, she was blocking my only escape route.

I glanced at her out of the corner of my eye.

Hoshimiya gave a small smile.

That smile was cute.

Cute, but it carried a certain pressure.

โ€œSeita.โ€

โ€œWhat is it?โ€

โ€œYouโ€™ll go out with me while weโ€™re at school, right?โ€

I get that she means โ€œas my childhood friend.โ€

But if you just hear the words, itโ€™s a complete misunderstanding.

Sure enough, the atmosphere around us exploded.

โ€œGo outโ€ฆ?โ€

โ€œWait, seriously?โ€

โ€œTakahara, what happened yesterday?โ€

I looked at Hoshimiya.

Hoshimiya was looking at me.

Deep within her eyes, anxiety, anticipation, and a fragility that seemed like it would shatter if I ran away were all mixed together. But at the same time, there was also a sly gleam, as if she understood that I couldnโ€™t run away.

This person is really a pain in the neck.

Weak, heavy, sly, and cute.

I exhaled deeply.

โ€œโ€ฆTo the โ€˜childhood friendsโ€™ setup.โ€

I added that clearly, loud enough for everyone around us to hear.

Hoshimiyaโ€™s fingertips gripped my sleeve a little tighter.

โ€œYeah.โ€

She nodded contentedly.

Then, in a voice only I could hear, she added softly.

โ€œFor now, Iโ€™ll settle for that.โ€

At those words, a chill ran down my spine.

For now.

As I suspected, this top idol hasnโ€™t given up.

She intends to turn the non-existent past of us being childhood friends into a reality from now on.

My second day of high school.

My goal of spending the day quietly had already slipped far out of reach before morning homeroom even began.


Maigetsu


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