I Saw My Female Friend, a Beautiful and Neat Girl, Holding a Romance Book Titled “How to Get Your Male Friend to Like You” and Decided to Give Advice on Love~ In Fact, the Guy She Likes Seems to Be Me!?~
“Kanzaki-kun! Are you free today? If you want, I thought we could go out again.”
Just after school, Hizakura, sitting next to me, spoke to me in a cheerful voice.
My plans for today are free, and up until now I would definitely have accepted the offer with a single word ……, but at least now.
“Sorry, I have plans today.”
“Oh …… I see”
When I lied and declined Hizakura’s offer, Hizakura seemed a little depressed.
Of course, I’m not telling a lie like this to see Hizakura’s sad face, but for myself and Hizakura.
Even if Hizakura and I continue to deepen our friendship, there is a painful reality waiting for me, at least at …… the end of it.
In that case, until Hizakura is married to the person she likes, keep an appropriate distance from her, and once Hizakura is married to the person she likes, remain friends with her to the extent that I don’t interfere with their romantic relationship would be optimal.
I can be friends with Hizakura who has a boyfriend, and we can really be just friends.
However, it’s also hard for me to see the depressed expression on her face right now because of me, so I tell her
“If you asked me out after school, then Hizakura must have free plans after school today, right? Then you should invite the person you like to play with and get to know him better.”
“……I can’t do that either if Kanzaki-kun has plans.”
Hizakura said something in a small voice.
“Hizakura, just now ────.”
I couldn’t catch what Hizakura said, and I tried to ask her what it was about, but she shook her head and said.
“No, if you have plans, it’s difficult today. …… See you tomorrow.”
“….. yeah, see you tomorrow.”
We said that to each other and we each left school and went home.
Just refusing an invitation from Hizakura for a false reason for the whole day today is such a pain in my heart.
However, if there is this pain, it must have been a good decision to refuse the invitation from Hizakura today.
I told myself that and decided to sleep a little earlier than usual today.
◇Hizakura Makoto’s side◇
“Ah~, I don’t understand how Kanzaki-kun feels~!”
I shouted that in my room when I got home.
I thought we were getting on well when he was staying over at my house yesterday, but why is Kanzaki-kun responding today as if he’s avoiding me!
It may be true that he has plans, but today’s Kanzaki-kun was somehow different from the usual Kanzaki-kun.
I wondered if I had done something to make Kanzaki-kun dislike me without realising it myself,…… and I came to that conclusion, and I went back from my own memories to see what actions I had taken that might make Kanzaki-kun dislike me,────.
“Ah,…….”
I immediately thought of it.
This is because yesterday morning, while Kanzaki-kun was sleeping, even if I say it was half unconscious, I snuggled into Kanzaki-kun’s futon and held his arms close to my body.
“Maybe that made him think that I was a light-hearted woman, but it seems that Kanzaki-kun doesn’t like that kind of thing…but! I don’t do that to anyone other than Kanzaki-kun, and I don’t think I’m a light-hearted woman even towards Kanzaki-kun. It’s not like that…right?”
I imagined a little bit about the time when Kanzaki-kun pushed me late at night.
If Kazsaki-kun had come at me with that kind of thing during our sleepover yesterday, I would have ……
“──── this, this kind of thing! This is what it means to be light!?”
Although I say that with my mouth, I shake my head and deny it with all my might.
It’s natural to want to do that kind of thing with someone you like, and this isn’t light or anything! It’s a bad habit of mine to let my thoughts run wild when it comes to Kanzaki-kun …… I decided to calm down and think for once.
Kanzaki-kun said he was aware of me as the opposite gender,…… but he looked pained afterwards.
“Surely he didn’t hate me because of something I did, if he hated me, he wouldn’t have said he was aware of me as the opposite gender, and even after he found out I hugged Kanzaki-kun when he was sleeping, he was kind and worried about me, and he even ate breakfast with me. ……, so I don’t think that’s why he hates me.”
In the first place, if I really was hated by Kanzaki-kun, I would be so hurt that I would never recover, so I don’t think about that.
…… But if that’s the case.
“Why is Kanzaki-kun suddenly avoiding me……?”
I wonder if Kanzaki-kun wants to avoid me ……?
“That, too, seems somehow different…….”
I thought about it a lot after that, but in the end I didn’t get an answer.
Tired from using my head quite a bit, I decided to sleep earlier than usual today,──── and the next morning on the rooftop.
After thinking about a lot of things yesterday, I came up with something that I wanted to discuss with Kanzaki-kun, so I decided to discuss it with Kanzaki-kun from now on.
“Kanzaki-kun,…… this is what I want to discuss about love today, what do you think I should do when the person I like is suddenly avoiding me?”