Episode 5 – I want to touch you, hold you close, never let you go


The Beautiful Girl With a Kind Personality and Good Looks, Who Happens to Be My Childhood Friend, Seems to Have Eyes Only for Me


On my way home with Haru, I got a message from Mom on my phone.

โ€˜The fridge is almost empty, so could you pick up some groceries on your way home?โ€™

Just an errand.

With Dad never home, Mom’s presence is hugeโ€”working late every day while still preparing meals. There was no reason for me to refuse her request.

I’d planned to go alone. But Haru was right beside me.

โ€œโ€ฆI’m going shopping.โ€

โ€œโ€ฆโ€

Just as I started to say that, Haru gently grabbed my sleeve.

โ€œโ€ฆI’ll help. โ€ฆOr ratherโ€ฆ I want to stay with you a little longer. Is thatโ€ฆ okay?โ€

When she looked up at me like that, there was no way I could refuse.

I nodded immediately.

โ€œโ€ฆYeah. Then let’s go to the shopping district together.โ€

As we started walking, Haru took my hand and intertwined her fingers with mine, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.

It was a busy time of day. Students, housewives returning from shopping, adults finishing workโ€”all were out. Yet Haru wouldn’t let go.

Occasionally, she’d glance up at me.

When our eyes met, she’d smile happily, looking a little shy.

โ€ฆWith a face like that, there was no way I could tell her to let go.

Entering the shopping district supermarket, Haru peered into the basket and began selecting items efficiently.

โ€œโ€ฆThese asparagus look good. New onions and snap peasโ€ฆ and some pork for shabu-shabu tooโ€ฆโ€

She added ingredients one after another to the basket I was holding.

Watching her, I suddenly found myself thinking:

(โ€ฆHaru would definitely make a good wife.)

She’s good at cooking, thoughtful, and kind to everyone.

Things are a bit complicated right now, but if everything goes smoothly, Haru and Yamatoโ€ฆ might end up together.

If that’s happiness, then it should be fine.

โ€ฆBut.

(โ€ฆWhy do Iโ€ฆ?)

A rough feeling spread deep within his chest.

โ€œโ€ฆDamn itโ€ฆโ€

A small curse slipped out involuntarily.

I wasn’t even sure what I was irritated about.

It was just that having Haru beside me felt so comfortable, and I naturally wanted her to stay by my side forever.

โ€ฆBut it wasn’t just that.

I wanted to touch her, hold her close, never let her go.

Such impulses welled up inside me, unbidden.

I didn’t want to give her to anyone else.

Not even to Yamato, not to anyone else.

I didn’t know if it was right or wrong.

Even so, I couldn’t deny this feeling.

โ€œโ€ฆHehe. It’s just like a married couple, isn’t it?โ€

Haru suddenly said with a smile.

โ€œโ€ฆMe as the bride, and Yuma as the groomโ€ฆโ€

Her slightly flushed profile.

She was so beautiful I found myself staring, unable to look away.

(โ€ฆThis is bad.)

Snapping back to reality, I paid the bill and left the shop.

My business was done.

We walked side by side through the twilight shopping district, heading home.

The setting sun dyed the road orange.

Quiet air.
Just me and Haru, time for the two of us alone.

After walking a while, Haru’s house came into view.

Across from it was Yamato’s house.

โ€ฆWhich meant this was where we parted ways.

โ€œโ€ฆThanks, Haru. You really helped me out.โ€

โ€œNo, it’s fine. I was the one who suggested itโ€ฆ Besides, I got to spend a lot of time with Yumaโ€ฆ It was a privilege.โ€

โ€œโ€ฆI see.โ€

Deep inside my chest, I felt an odd sense of reluctance.

As if to suppress that feeling, I reached out to take the shopping bag Haru was holding.

โ€”At that instant.

It was as if my body moved of its own accord.

Before I knew it, I was holding Haru in my arms.

โ€œKyaโ€ฆ Yuumaโ€ฆ?โ€

Before my mind could register โ€œWhat am I doing?โ€, Haru’s warmth and soft touch melted my thoughts.

Haru, who seemed startled for a moment, quickly wrapped her arms around my back and hugged me back.

โ€œโ€ฆIt’s calmingโ€ฆ Just a little longer like thisโ€ฆโ€
โ€œโ€ฆYesโ€ฆ anytimeโ€ฆ It’s okayโ€ฆโ€

Haru lifted her face and slowly brought her lips closer.

Just a little moreโ€”and they would touch.

That was the moment.

โ€œโ€ฆOnee chan?โ€

A hesitant voice fell from behind us.

Haru and I turned around almost simultaneously, holding our breath.

Standing there were two girls in school uniforms.

One was a girl with black bobbed hair, standing straight and staring at us.
Her gaze was calm, yet clearly sharp, as if measuring distance.

The other stood slightly behind her.

A petite girl, her long hair swaying, blinked uncertainly as she looked back and forth between me and Haru.

โ€œโ€ฆChiya.โ€
โ€œโ€ฆMitsuri.โ€

Haru called their names as if seeing something unbelievable.

Kamiya Chiya.

Yamato’s younger sister, a first-year student who had just attended her entrance ceremony today.

Andโ€”Mitsuri. Haru’s younger sister, the one she’d been talking about earlier.

Chiya took a single step forward.

โ€œโ€ฆThis is in front of my house, you know.โ€
โ€œโ€ฆAhโ€ฆโ€

Haru lost her words.

Mitsuri tugged gently on Haru’s sleeve.

โ€œโ€ฆOnee chanโ€ฆjust nowโ€ฆyou were closeโ€ฆโ€

โ€œโ€ฆN-no, it’s not like thatโ€ฆโ€

Haru shook her head frantically.

โ€œโ€ฆI wasโ€ฆaccompanying him shoppingโ€ฆandโ€ฆโ€

Out of the corner of her eye, as Haru stammered, Chiyo’s gaze turned to me.

A clear wariness, as if suppressing emotion.

โ€œโ€ฆWhat were you doing?โ€

โ€œโ€ฆJust getting some help with shopping.โ€

I answered briefly, hoping to keep the atmosphere from getting any heavier.

Mitsuri looked up at me anxiously.

โ€œโ€ฆDid youโ€ฆ not mind, onee chanโ€ฆ?โ€

โ€œโ€ฆHuh?โ€

โ€œโ€ฆWere youโ€ฆ forcing yourselfโ€ฆ?โ€

Haru faltered for just a moment, then gave a small smile.

โ€œโ€ฆIt’s fine, Mitsuri. I asked her myself.โ€

At those words, Mitsuri nodded, looking slightly relieved.

But Chiyo’s expression didn’t change.

โ€œโ€ฆDo you always cling to Haru-nee like that?โ€

โ€œโ€ฆChiyoโ€ฆ?โ€

โ€œโ€ฆHonestly, I think it’s better not to get too involved. โ€ฆMy brother is way cooler and more reliable.โ€

Beside her, Mitsuri added quietly.

โ€œโ€ฆYamato-sanโ€ฆ is kindโ€ฆโ€

โ€œโ€ฆMitsuriโ€ฆโ€

A sharp pang stabbed deep in my chest.

I could have argued back endlessly.

But arguing now would only trouble Haru and Mitsuri.

โ€œโ€ฆHaru, thanks for today.โ€

I took the bag from Haru and said quietly.

โ€œโ€ฆThat was a big help. โ€ฆWell then.โ€

I slipped between them and left the spot.

I felt a gaze on my back, like they wanted to say something, but I didn’t turn around.

(โ€ฆWhat the hell was that?)

My best friend’s little sister.

It should be nothing more than that, yet from the start, it felt like a line had been drawn.

I didn’t know why.

Without understanding, only a sediment-like feeling remained deep in my chest.

โ€œโ€ฆI really don’t get itโ€ฆโ€

It wouldn’t be right to keep Mom waiting.

I quickened my pace and hurried home.


Maiasa


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