When I Go Back in Time, My Ex-wife Is Making a Passionate Approach to Me, and I’m Having Trouble With It
I can’t hide my upset. Ryo was talking about me in a love story. I have often wondered in the past. Why didn’t he make a move on me, why didn’t he respond to my approach?
The mystery was solved.
Ryo must be in a time leap too. Probably, it was Ryo after he fell out of favor with me.
If that is the case, my calculations are drastically off. I had been working on the assumption that Ryo in this time period likes me. Originally, Ryo was making a fierce attack on me. I thought he would easily fall for me if I approached him a little.
However, if Ryo is divorced and in a time-lapse, it is a different story. I was convinced that he would not be dominated by me even if I approached him. Ryo and I had become largely indifferent to each other and had chosen to divorce. If Ryo had come back from the time leap in such a state, there was no way he would be dominated by me.
I was impatient. Since I had come back in time, I wanted to have another chance with Ryo, and I had been acting accordingly. If the other party is Ryo at the time of the divorce, my appeal is meaningless.
I am sure Ryo hates me. He must hate me for not being able to express my feelings honestly.
“What should I do from now on?”
I was alone outside the room at night after they had gone to bed. I had been unable to sleep since I had a suspicion that Ryo was in a time leap.
I wondered if I would ever be able to have a second chance with Ryo. The truth is that I really liked Ryo. I couldn’t honestly tell him how I felt about him. That is my regret. I had made up my mind that if I could do it over again, I would tell Ryo how I felt about him this time. My resolve is wavering.
I am afraid that Ryo will reject me. I’m more afraid of him giving me that look again.
“Can’t you sleep?”
Suddenly, I heard a voice behind me and turned around. Ryo was standing there.
“Yes, I’ve been thinking about something.”
“I was so excited I was wide awake too.”
The two of us, side by side, reminded me of our honeymoon. We were happy then. We didn’t seem like a couple who would ever divorce. The passage of time is cruel. You can’t stop your feelings from growing apart.
“I wish you would have left me alone.”
“I wanted someone to talk to, too.”
“Did you say anything about choosing her novel over mine?”
To be honest, I was really disappointed that Ryo chose Tachibana’s novel. If Ryo was here, having traveled back in time, he must have read my novel many times. And yet my novel wasn’t chosen. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t disappointed.
“I don’t want to judge whether a work is good or bad based on sentiment. That’s all.”
“Is my novel losing?”
“Yeah, you are losing. Kurosaki san’s novels are stable. But that’s all. I don’t feel overwhelmed like Tachibana.”
“You are so honest.”
“I want to be honest about works.”
Ryo tells me plainly. It was frustrating. I wanted Ryo to hold my shoulder unconditionally. At least, the past Ryo would have done so. I know that there is nothing left in his heart about my charms.
What should I do? Should I just give up on Ryo?
“Hey, I just said that there’s someone I like? But there’s no hope, and I am wondering ifI should give up.”
“That’s not like you. I thought you wouldn’t give up, Kurosaki san.”
“It’s hard when he doesn’t have a pulse”
“Well, but if your confession has not failed, then you don’t have to give up.”
I know. I’m sure you would say that. Because you are the guy who kept on attacking me without giving up even though I had rejected you many times.
I smiled bitterly and looked at Ryo. I see, Ryo has come back in time too. I’m sure Ryo has no intention of starting over with me. I can tell by his attitude.
But I want to start over. It’s so sad that my marriage life with the first person I fell in love with was like that. I want to be able to show him how much I like him.
“I’ve made up my mind. I won’t give up. Even if he rejects me, I will move on. I’m going to be a hard worker, and I’m going to make this love come true.”
Just like you.
It was easy once I gave up. In the past, Ryo had conquered me, but now it was my turn to conquer him.
“Love is difficult, isn’t it? Even though in the past someone loved someone so much, now that person doesn’t care anymore. So maybe love is just a momentary fancy.”
“That’s not true. The time you spent in love with that person is also real. If you destroy the cause of your coldness, you will fall in love again.”
“I wonder if that’s true. I don’t think so.”
Ryo is traumatized by his failure with me. Maybe he has become timid about love. I want him to remember that the time he spent with me was happy. I was happy. I was really happy that Ryo fell in love with me and married me. I am going to get that happiness back again.
“Sometimes things don’t work out because love is a relationship between people. That’s when I think it’s important to talk things out. If you stop communicating with each other, it’s the end.”
“Communication, huh? I certainly know what you mean.”
Ryo’s eyes widened with sadness.
I will definitely start over. If Ryo is in a time leap, I just have to figure out how to do it. I will try my best to make Ryo want to be next to me again.
I made up my mind to do so as I felt the night breeze.