When I Go Back in Time, My Ex-wife Is Making a Passionate Approach to Me, and I’m Having Trouble With It
The school festival is coming up. For a week from today, classes will be held only in the morning as a preparation week for the festival.
After the morning classes, we were forced to help the class prepare for their performance.
“We’re not exactly haunted house kids, by the way.”
Haruka said.
Incidentally, even in the past, the school festival was held as a haunted house. So this is a historical fact.
In high school, Haruka was allowed to play the role of a ghost, and she became more popular for her cuteness than for her scary nature. It seems that she has taken on the role of a ghost this time as well.
“I think Haruka looks cute as a ghost.”
“Really?”
“Yes, it’s true. It suits you well.”
Haruka smiled, blushing slightly as she pulled her hands into the sleeves of her ghost costume.
“If Ryo says so, I’m motivated.”
“You’ll have to do my best for the class.”
By the way, I’m supposed to stand in as a ghost too. The haunted house used to be quite popular and I remember it being flooded with customers. It’s nice to be able to experience the festival once again, even if it’s the same one.
“You haven’t forgotten about your promise to go around the festival with me, have you?”
“Don’t worry. I remember.”
“I’m glad.”
Haruka patted her chest and quietly went about her work. Even if you call it a haunted house, you can’t make it that big because you only use one classroom. We need to make good use of the classroom’s space and create a road map. The main materials used are cardboard boxes. I used magic markers to color in the cardboard and create the decorations.
I am not good at this kind of manual work, and my clumsy hands make me almost useless. That hasn’t changed even now that I’ve turned 30.
Haruka is good at this kind of work, so she actively participates.
“You’re using the scissors wrong.”
Haruka said, coming around behind me and grabbing my arm.
“This is how you cut.”
My heart throbs a little at being in close contact with Haruka for the first time in a long time. In our long married life, I have not been in close contact with Haruka for a long time.
“Haruka is very close to me, isn’t she?”
“It’s because it’s you. I don’t do this to people I don’t like.”
Haruka blushes and looks away. Seeing Haruka express her affection so openly, she seems like a different person to the Haruka I was married to. It’s clear that the Haruka I was married to was never in love with me. Haruka never confessed her feelings to me. That was normal. But as time passed, that normality turned into disgust. Things that didn’t bother me at first now prick my heart like thorns.
The Haruka here now certainly seems like a different person from the Haruka I was married to. Maybe this Haruka will work out. No, they are the same human being after all. Even if she is in love with me now, her love will cool once we get married. When that cools off, it’s obvious that she will become the same as the Haruka I was married to.
“What’s wrong?”
“No, it’s nothing.”
“Lies. You definitely look like you have something on your face. Tell me the truth.”
Haruka is stubborn when it comes to this. I told her exactly what I had just thought in my mind.
“I’m uncomfortable that you think so.”
“It’s the same with love. Love will cool down someday. Do you have confidence that you can maintain the same attitude then as you do now?”
“No. But even if love fades, affection remains.”
“That’s not true for me.”
“Maybe you were right. But I think it is because you failed once that you can make the most of the experience the next time.”
Haruka in front of me somehow doesn’t look like a high school student anymore. She’s much more mature than me. Haruka is an adult. In comparison, I’ll probably always be a child.
I’m trying to escape to the easy way out. If I choose Kyoka, it will be easy for me. I don’t have to think about anything else. However, it is Haruka’s love for me that holds me back from making that decision. I can’t make up my mind whether I should reject a girl who genuinely thinks about me for such a reason. I still have feelings for Haruka. That’s why it bothers me. The reason why my heart is so tight is because the memories of the time when I loved Haruka still remain in my mind.
Maybe my love for Haruka has not disappeared, as she says.
“I want Ryo to choose me. I want a chance for me now. But that is my selfishness. I won’t interfere in what Ryo decides.”
“I still can’t make up my mind. I have a feeling in my mind that it would be better to do it this way. But I don’t have the courage to do it.”
“It’s an important thing. I want you to seriously think about it and make a decision. I don’t want you to make a decision lightly. I don’t call you a lazy person, and I don’t call you indecisive.”
I really am a lazy and indecisive. But Haruka says she’ll wait for me to make such a decision. I’m going to take Haruka’s advice for now, but I’m going to take some more time to think about it.
“I’m not in a hurry. I told you. I told you I’d wait until after high school.’
“You’re too good a girl.”
“That’s right. I’m a good girl. If you miss it, I’ll be a big fish.”
Haruka winked at me and went back to her work. This part of Haruka’s personality makes her easy to work with. I still have a lot of worries, but I want to seriously consider them and make a decision. It may take me until I graduate from high school to make a decision. This time I will make a decision that I will not regret.