When I Go Back in Time, My Ex-wife Is Making a Passionate Approach to Me, and I’m Having Trouble With It
Now that I’m dating Haruka, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Lately, I’ve been thinking about Haruka all the time, so I haven’t been able to sleep well. Since I started dating Haruka, I’ve been able to fall asleep surprisingly easily.
It’s been a week since I started dating Haruka, and today she came to my house to visit.
“It’s been a while since I’ve been in Ryo’s room.”
Actually, since I’ve been time-traveling, this is the first time she’s been in my room, so I wonder how many years ago it was since she was last here.
“Well, it’s not that messy, so don’t worry.”
“Yeah, it’s pretty tidy for you. You used to be a mess when we were married.”
“That was because I was busy with work.”
“I know. You worked so hard.”
Haruka smiled. So that’s how she felt about me. I hadn’t realized it. I thought she wasn’t interested in me.
“Hey, Ryo.”
“What?”
“I love you.”
“…Yeah. I love you too.”
At this age, it feels awkward to suddenly start a love battle. But my first marriage failed because we didn’t have that love battle. So, we should definitely do it now.
Haruka gently spreads her arms. I gently hug her.
“Ryo, I’m sorry. I didn’t express my feelings properly, so I disappointed you.”
“It was my fault. I didn’t think about Haruka. I was only thinking about myself.”
“From now on, I’ll make sure to say I love you.”
“I’ll say I love you too.”
What we lacked was communication. Miscommunication piled up, and we drifted apart emotionally. We actually ended up divorcing, and if we hadn’t time-leaped like this, we probably wouldn’t have been able to start over.
“Can I kiss you?”
Haruka asked. Since we got married, Haruka and I hadn’t really communicated like this. We hadn’t taken any actions to confirm our love for each other. So it was a bit surprising that Haruka was asking me to kiss her.
“I want to too.”
We pressed our lips together. Since we time-leaped, it was our first kiss. Haruka’s slightly moist lips sought mine as if sucking on them. When we parted, Haruka looked reluctant to let go.
“…Is that okay?”
It was a signal to make love. The body I had always desired was finally mine. It was a very sweet thing for me.
But I shook my head.
“Not yet.”
“Why?”
“If we do it now, it’ll feel like I’m giving in to teenage lust.”
I decided to start dating Haruka again because I wanted to give it another serious try. I wasn’t just dating her for her body. To prove that, I wasn’t going to give in to her so easily.
“That’s cool. I’m ready whenever you are.”
“You’re so proactive.”
“Because we haven’t done it in years.”
That’s right. We hadn’t done it in years. If you don’t have sex for two years, it’s grounds for divorce. We had long since passed that deadline.
“This time, I want a baby too.”
Haruka murmurs softly. She wants a child. Last time, we didn’t have the luxury of that. But I’ve always dreamed of having a child with the person I love.
“I’ll be more careful about choosing my job.”
I should choose a job that allows me to properly support my family, not one that’s too demanding.
“I’ll choose my job carefully too.”
We’ve only just started dating, but we’re already talking about marriage. When I decided to give Haruka another chance, I made up my mind to spend the rest of my life with her. At least, I truly want to protect Haruka.
“We’ve been drifting apart for too long.”
“That’s true. We really loved each other.”
“This time, I want to build memories together. I want to spend Halloween, Christmas, and New Year’s with you.”
“We didn’t do that last time. This time, let’s do it together.”
Last time, we didn’t even properly celebrate our wedding anniversary. It’s clear that wasn’t good. Anniversaries and events are opportunities to reaffirm our love. We need to make sure we do them properly.
“But this time, I thought it might not work out. I wondered if Ryo would choose Kyoka-san.”
As Haruka said, I did hesitate. It’s not a lie that I thought I could get along well with Kyoka. But my heart never strayed from Haruka.
“In the end, I was still in love with Haruka.”
Just like back then when I pursued her relentlessly, my heart was solely focused on Haruka. I want Haruka to be happy. That’s why I seriously wondered if I was the right choice.
Now, those doubts have vanished. I want to make Haruka happy. I want to make her happy with my own hands. That desire is clear within me.
“If you had pursued me with such dedication, I would have fallen for you.”
“My heart is still the same as it was back then… no, that’s not right. I cherish Haruka even more than I did back then.”
“Me too. I cherish Ryo. I truly want to be happy together.”
“I love you, Haruka.”
“I love you too.”
We are like a newly dating couple, expressing our love for each other. We fill the time we never had before with words. This time, I feel like Haruka and I are truly in love.
Until death separates us, I want to be with her. I truly feel that way.