Episode 29 – Uncontrollable feelings


I, Who Was Reincarnated as an Evil Character With Cheat-Level Stats in an Eroge, Will Live Freely in This Life


โ— Nanashima Kana (side)

I was rushing around at home.

Today was the day Senpai was coming over, and no one else was home.

My parents would be back in the evening, but until thenโ€ฆ

And it was almost time for Senpai to arrive.

I changed into my room clothes and got myself ready, but I kept looking in the mirror over and over again. Am I looking weird? I keep thinking that, and more than anything, I want Senpai to think I’m cute.

โ€œOkay! I’m fine!!โ€

I said that and let go of the mirror.

I’ve tidied up the room and cleaned it properly.

I’m fully prepared to welcome Senpai.

I mustered up the courage to invite him, so today I’ll study hard and do my best to impress Senpai!!!

(Ding-dong)

Just then, the doorbell rang.

I thought, โ€œHe’s here!โ€ but I was still a little nervous.

After all, it’s not something you would normally do, inviting someone into your room out of the blue. I feel embarrassed too.

I even told my brother-in-law not to come in.

The reason I invited Senpai to my house was simply because I wanted him to notice me. I decided to be proactive in showing my feelings.

Today is the first step. I don’t know how it will turn out, but I’m determined to give it my all.

Of course, I’ll study hard and have a study session!!! That’s what I’m saying, but to be honest, I’m also hoping to be able to lean on Senpai a littleโ€ฆ

With that mix of embarrassment and nervousness, I opened the door to my house.

โ€œH-hello, Seito-senpaiโ€ฆโ€

โ€œHello, Kana.โ€

โ€œThank you for coming todayโ€ฆ Please come in.โ€

โ€œI’ll take you up on that. Excuse me for intruding.โ€

Then, I calmed myself down and showed senpai into the room.

โ€œPlease sit here.โ€

โ€œSure.โ€

Once we arrived in the room, I said that and had senpai sit down, then I sat down across from him at the desk.

I actually wanted to sit next to him, but I was still a little nervous and couldn’t do it yet.

โ€œBy the way, did you tell your parents that I was coming today?โ€

โ€œNo, I didn’t.โ€

โ€œWell, I guess so.โ€

โ€œWas that a bad thing?โ€

I didn’t tell my parents or my brother-in-law.

Because even if my brother-in-law is one thing, telling my parents would be really embarrassing.

Given their personalities, I don’t think they would oppose me inviting someone I like, but they would probably say something like, โ€œThen we’ll stay home instead of going out, so you can introduce him!โ€

That’s too embarrassingโ€ฆ I couldn’t tell my family for that reason.

โ€œBut is it okay to bring someone here without asking first?โ€

โ€œWellโ€ฆ I think it’s okay?โ€

I hadn’t even considered whether it was okay or not.

I just knew that no one was home today, so I could invite Senpai!!! That was all I was thinking about.

If they find out I brought him without saying anything, it might be a bit problematic, or they might get angryโ€ฆ If that happens, they’ll definitely tell me to introduce them to senpaiโ€ฆ especially my father. My mom would probably worry, but she’d end up letting me do it anyway.

Even though I thought that, I told senpai it was okay. I didn’t want to worry him unnecessarily.

โ€œWell, if that’s okay, let’s get started right away.โ€

โ€œLet’s do it!โ€

After Senpai said that, I took out my study materials and sat down next to him, thinking this time for sure.

Shoulder to shoulder, close enough to touchโ€ฆ I sat at that distance.

It’s incredibly nerve-wracking, but at the same time, it’s strange how it feels reassuringโ€ฆ

But it’s a little embarrassingโ€ฆ

I said that to distract myself from the embarrassment.

โ€œAlright, let’s get started!โ€

โ€œAlright.โ€

And so, my study session with Senpai began.

ใ€€โ€•โ€•A while later.

โ€œsenpai!! This is amazing!!! I’m understanding it more and more!! You’re so good at teaching!!โ€

senpai’s teaching was so good that I was able to solve the problems one after another.

Miku-nee and Saki-nee are also good at teaching, but I felt that he might be even better than them. He’s really amazing!!!

Now, even with senpai sitting right next to me, the tension had disappeared, leaving only a sense of joy and comfort.

โ€œKana’s ability to grasp things is pretty impressive, though.โ€

โ€œIs that so? I’ve heard that from Miku-nee and Saki-nee before.โ€

I’ve heard that from them before, but to be honest, I don’t really feel it.

I’m not good at using my brain, and I think studying itself is difficult for me.

Even in school, I listen to the lessons, but my concentration fades quickly, and nothing really sticks.

When it comes to studying, it’s almost like I only do it when Mikku-nee and Saki-nee help me before exams.

I’m so happy that they’re teaching me, and it motivates me to try harder.

Otherwise, my brain just doesn’t work, and I can’t do itโ€ฆ

โ€œI’m sure of it. If you study properly, you could probably aim for the top of the class. Well, it’s probably impossible this time, though.โ€

The top of the classโ€ฆ Could I really do that?

Come to think of it, senpai, Miku-nee, and Saki-nee are all at the top of the class.

I do think Miku-nee, Saki-nee, and senpai are smart and cool, but senpaiโ€ฆ

โ€œUm, do you prefer smart people, senpai?โ€

When I saw the manga Saki-nee had a long time ago, there was a guy who said he hated stupid girls.

Plus, among my friends, a lot of people say they prefer smart guys over dumb ones.

If senpai thinks that wayโ€ฆ I was feeling anxious about it even though I asked him myself.

โ€œNo? I don’t think so. But I do want Kana to study hard. It would be a waste of her good memory. I’ll always be there to help you, so let’s work hard together.โ€

โ€œOh, I seeโ€ฆ I understand. Then let’s continue! I’m really motivated now!โ€

senpai said that, so I replied in kind.

And after hearing that, my feelings of anxiety had disappeared.

Still, senpai is really kind.

He didn’t just answer, he said he’d study with me and teach meโ€ฆ I’m really happy.

Why was I worried about that? Even if senpai likes smart people, all I have to do is change myself.

If it’s to get senpai to notice me, that’s not too hard!

โ€œLet’s continue then.โ€

โ€œYes!!โ€

After that, I think I was able to concentrate on my studies even more.

โ—‡

โ€œPhew, I’m exhausted!!!โ€

It’s been a while since I studied this hard.

Besides, when I studied with Senpai, time flew by.

It’s almost time to say goodbyeโ€ฆ Thinking about that made me feel really sad.

I want to be with Senpai more, I want to talk to Senpai more.

As I was thinking that, Senpai said to me.

โ€œGood job, Kana.โ€

โ€œThank you, senpai! Thank you so much.โ€

โ€œYou said you’re not good at studying, but you managed to study for so long.โ€

โ€œHehe, it’s all thanks to senpai.โ€

โ€œI see.โ€

โ€œUmโ€ฆ senpaiโ€ฆ Since I studied so hard, could you give me a little reward?โ€

I asked him that because I was sad to say goodbye to Seito-senpai.

It was embarrassing, but I wanted to stay with him a little longerโ€ฆ

โ€œIf it’s something I can do.โ€

โ€œThen, if you don’t mindโ€ฆโ€

Seito-senpai said that with a smile, so I took the plunge and leaned on his shoulder.

โ€œIs this okay as a reward?โ€

senpai’s voice echoed in my ear.

I was very nervous, but more than that, I felt comfortable.

โ€œYesโ€ฆ this is fine.โ€

โ€œI see.โ€

This is what happiness is, I guess.

I was silent for a while, but that’s how I feltโ€ฆ

โ€œI’m really glad I became friends with senpai.โ€

โ€œWhat’s gotten into you all of a sudden?โ€

What’s gotten into me? I don’t really understand it myself.

But right now, I just wanted to say that. My feelings are all over the place.

โ€œNothing’s gotten into me. I just said it because I felt that way. Ever since I met you, Senpai, it’s been so much fun.โ€

โ€œThat’s nice to hear. But I feel the same way. I’m glad I met you, Kanaโ€ฆโ€

“Eheheโ€ฆ I’m so happy. Please continue to take care of me, senpai!!”

โ€œLikewise.โ€

After that, we talked for a little while longer, then stood up.

โ—‡

โ€œWell, I guess I should be going now.โ€

โ€œYes! Thank you so much for today!!!โ€

โ€œI’ll teach you whenever you need help with your studies. See you later.โ€

senpai said that and turned away.

ใ€€
Ahโ€ฆ I wanted to stay with him a little longer.

Since I had been having such a happy time until just a moment ago, I felt really sad at the thought of saying goodbye.

At the same time, my feelings for senpai were welling up inside me.

Even though I’ll see him again soon, the fact that I’m thinking about this means that I’m hopelessly in love with senpaiโ€ฆ

โ€œSeito senpai!!!โ€

Before I knew it, my body had moved on its own, and I was kissing Senpai’s cheek.

I didn’t even think about itโ€ฆ I guess my heart made me do it. I couldn’t control my feelings for Senpai.

My heart was pounding so loudlyโ€ฆ My mind wasn’t working at all.

My head was a mess with all these thoughts.

“โ€ฆ”

Even after I stepped back, Senpai just looked surprised and didn’t say anything.

But that was okay. I couldn’t hear Senpai’s voice right now.

Because my heart was beating so fast it felt like it was going to burst.

I was so embarrassed I wanted to run home right away, but since I’d gone this far, I had to tell himโ€ฆ If I didn’t tell him now, it would be awkward to face him tomorrow.

With that in mind, I mustered up my courage and told him.

โ€œIโ€ฆ I like you, Seito-senpai! I don’t know how you feel about me, but I’ll definitely make you fall in love with me! Well, excuse me!โ€

With that, I hurried into the house.


Maiban


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