I’m Incompetent and a Failure, and My Childhood Friend, Who Is a Beautiful Kyoto Dialect Vice President Idol on the Outside but in Reality Is a Menhera Yandere, Is Dependent on Me, but Please, Leave Me Alone!
How did this happen…..
How…
A familiar bed.
My familiar bed, the place of rest that always invites me to a peaceful and restful sleep.
And yet, I cannot rest in that place of peace.
I could not sleep.
Restful sleep is for people to heal from the fatigue of daily labor.
And yet…I can’t do it.
Why?
It’s obvious.
Because the opposite gender of my unrequited love is sleeping next to me….
No, technically she’s not sleeping yet.
She’s just lying next to me, but she’s conscious.
The proof is that she is staring at me…
“Um…Akemi san…?”
“What?”
“Why have you been staring at my face all this time?”
“Because I find your hundred faces so amusing… you change your color so often, it’s quite amusing.”
“No…”
“Well I’m bored now, I’m going to bed… good night…”
“Yeah…Good night.”
“Really ……”
Akemi then mumbled something and closed her eyelids.
There’s nothing wrong with not being able to hear what someone is saying because their voice is so low.
It’s so close that there’s no noise.
It’s not like I can’t hear it unless I’m the main character with hearing loss….
“Really …..a coward…”
Coward…
What does that mean…?
Does it mean that if I take it as it is, it’s OK to push her down?
Akemi was expecting that…?
That’s ridiculous…, that’s impossible.
It’s a virgin’s fantasy.
But if she was really expecting it…
I would be able to touch Akemi’s skin in a big way…
This would be perverted…
Besides, if I got ahead of myself in my fantasy and harassed Akemi… there would be nothing I could do to get her back.
In the end, I had only a word to choose from: patience.
Then how many hours have passed since then…
With Akemi next to me, I can’t even turn over, and not being able to move is a kind of torture.
My eyes were bright… and no sleepiness came at all.
I can hear her peaceful sleeping breath coming from next to me, so it seems that Akemi has safely fallen asleep.
I can’t sleep.
There is no way I can sleep,
My consciousness is sharpened like never before, and I am far from asleep.
In addition, the warmth of her breath is keeping a part of me in a constant state of high alert.
It’s frustrating.
(Let’s just… go to the bathroom…)
Just as I was about to get out of bed, the situation suddenly changed.
Something started clinging to my waist.
And I don’t have to ask what it was.
You already know the answer, so what’s the point of asking and answering?
Around my waist was an arm, a thin, supple, but well-muscled girl’s arm.
The arm is around my waist, two rounded bulges pressed against my back.
They are soft and warm.
She’s breathing in my ear.
My ears are tingling.
Looking at the situation objectively, it seems that Akemi, who is sound asleep, has clung to me.
Thinking about it, Akemi used to have a habit of hugging her mother, father, my mother, and even me.
Normally, hugging is an act of expressing one’s feelings when something happy or sad happens, but in the past, Akemi would often hug someone over trivial matters.
aunt and uncle would correct her habit, and later, as she grew older, she lost the habit.
I remember that I was happy to be hugged by her, so I was a little sad to see it go.
I never thought that the hugging habit would be revealed in this way….
Come to think of it, there was a very large stuffed animal on the bed in Akemi’s room.
I didn’t really pay attention to it, but was it a stuffed animal for cuddling?
Akemi had never had a hobby of collecting anything, so I wondered about that.
Just as I was remembering this, Akemi’s legs became entangled with mine.
I was completely held in place, and I couldn’t go to the bathroom.
It’s bad…it’s really bad.
It’s not good to feel Akemi’s body hitting me here and there. The feeling of her thighs, her calves, her breasts, her breath on my neck, her faint breathing in her sleep….
Everything is bad.
Oh, no.
Oh no…
Oh no…
Is Akemi really asleep…
I wonder if she’s really awake…
Maybe she’s just pretending to be asleep and gloating over my pathetic virginity moves…?
But I don’t have the courage to find out.
If she’s really awake, what happens then?
On the other hand, if she’s really asleep, waking her up would be a bad idea, too.
Waking up from sleep is a prime condition for being in a bad mood…
It will only lead to suspicion and teasing….
As I was thinking about this, she hugged me even tighter, and the closeness between our skin was even worse than before….
The feeling of the skin, the warmth…
(Damn~, why do girls smell so good… we’re supposed to be in the same bath, but she smells completely different… and soft… and warm… damn damn damn damn damn~…)
Akiru is certainly stupid and inept.
Above all, he is a lazy person.
But he is a boy.
He had a one-sided love…or rather, a feeling of unrequited love that continues to this day.
The feeling of longing for Akemi.
Wanting to touch her…wanting to feel her…and most of all, wanting to be relaxed…
Pure craving, desire….
Another thing he wants to have a fair relationship with her,
he wants to be fair to her, he wants to be equal to her.
Because they are childhood friends… because they are friends… because they are lovers…
(A useless man like me… is Akemi’s lover…? You’re kidding me… it’s totally out of proportion…)
I have nothing left to offer, nothing to show…
I want to have an equal relationship with Akemi.
If we can become equals in at least one way, then I can have confidence in myself… I can have the courage to be with Akemi….
Lovers must be equal…
Otherwise, it will fall apart, won’t it?
There is no future for a relationship that keeps pessimistic feelings about the other person forever.
I want to be equal with Akemi… so…
“Aki kun…”
(He ……?)
“Aki…ku…….. suuu…suu…”
(Akemi…?)
Talking in your sleep?
Was that a sleep talk…?
She’s not awake… right…?
I am driven by the desire to check Akemi’s face, but I can’t look behind me because my body is bound by Akemi’s arms and legs….
I don’t dare to look at her face in the first place. If Akemi wakes up when I look at her face, she will tease me saying, “Why do you take me so seriously?~”
I can easily imagine such a future, but if I keep pretending to be asleep, Akemi’s teasing will end in failure, and I don’t want her to know I’m awake….
But if Akemi is really asleep, and what she said in her sleep is what she really feels inside….
She…
(Akemi unknowingly needs me…?”)
Is there such a convenient thing?
For an incompetent no-good guy like me who keeps failing at everything he does?
To a smart, beautiful, popular girl like Akemi, who has many friends?
But if she needs me, then her past behavior makes sense.
Is she just being shy?
I think not…
These actions are her own.
Then she must be unaware of it, or does Akemi herself not realize that she needs me?
I don’t know…
I don’t know…
In the end, I could not sleep properly that day, and it was not until the light began to stream in through the window that I let go of my consciousness.