Iโm Incompetent and a Failure, and My Childhood Friend, Who Is a Beautiful Kyoto Dialect Vice President Idol on the Outside but in Reality Is a Menhera Yandere, Is Dependent on Me, but Please, Leave Me Alone!
How did this happenโฆ..
Howโฆ
A familiar bed.
My familiar bed, the place of rest that always invites me to a peaceful and restful sleep.
And yet, I cannot rest in that place of peace.
I could not sleep.
Restful sleep is for people to heal from the fatigue of daily labor.
And yetโฆI can’t do it.
Why?
It’s obvious.
Because the opposite gender of my unrequited love is sleeping next to meโฆ.
No, technically she’s not sleeping yet.
She’s just lying next to me, but she’s conscious.
The proof is that she is staring at meโฆ
“UmโฆAkemi sanโฆ?”
“What?”
“Why have you been staring at my face all this time?”
“Because I find your hundred faces so amusingโฆ you change your color so often, it’s quite amusing.”
“Noโฆ”
“Well I’m bored now, I’m going to bedโฆ good nightโฆ”
“YeahโฆGood night.”
“Really โฆโฆ”
Akemi then mumbled something and closed her eyelids.
There’s nothing wrong with not being able to hear what someone is saying because their voice is so low.
It’s so close that there’s no noise.
It’s not like I can’t hear it unless I’m the main character with hearing lossโฆ.
“Really โฆ..a cowardโฆ”
Cowardโฆ
What does that meanโฆ?
Does it mean that if I take it as it is, it’s OK to push her down?
Akemi was expecting thatโฆ?
That’s ridiculousโฆ, that’s impossible.
It’s a virgin’s fantasy.
But if she was really expecting itโฆ
I would be able to touch Akemi’s skin in a big wayโฆ
This would be pervertedโฆ
Besides, if I got ahead of myself in my fantasy and harassed Akemiโฆ there would be nothing I could do to get her back.
In the end, I had only a word to choose from: patience.
Then how many hours have passed since thenโฆ
With Akemi next to me, I can’t even turn over, and not being able to move is a kind of torture.
My eyes were brightโฆ and no sleepiness came at all.
I can hear her peaceful sleeping breath coming from next to me, so it seems that Akemi has safely fallen asleep.
I can’t sleep.
There is no way I can sleep,
My consciousness is sharpened like never before, and I am far from asleep.
In addition, the warmth of her breath is keeping a part of me in a constant state of high alert.
It’s frustrating.
(Let’s justโฆ go to the bathroomโฆ)
Just as I was about to get out of bed, the situation suddenly changed.
Something started clinging to my waist.
And I don’t have to ask what it was.
You already know the answer, so what’s the point of asking and answering?
Around my waist was an arm, a thin, supple, but well-muscled girl’s arm.
The arm is around my waist, two rounded bulges pressed against my back.
They are soft and warm.
She’s breathing in my ear.
My ears are tingling.
Looking at the situation objectively, it seems that Akemi, who is sound asleep, has clung to me.
Thinking about it, Akemi used to have a habit of hugging her mother, father, my mother, and even me.
Normally, hugging is an act of expressing one’s feelings when something happy or sad happens, but in the past, Akemi would often hug someone over trivial matters.
aunt and uncle would correct her habit, and later, as she grew older, she lost the habit.
I remember that I was happy to be hugged by her, so I was a little sad to see it go.
I never thought that the hugging habit would be revealed in this wayโฆ.
Come to think of it, there was a very large stuffed animal on the bed in Akemi’s room.
I didn’t really pay attention to it, but was it a stuffed animal for cuddling?ใ
Akemi had never had a hobby of collecting anything, so I wondered about that.
Just as I was remembering this, Akemi’s legs became entangled with mine.
I was completely held in place, and I couldn’t go to the bathroom.
It’s badโฆit’s really bad.
It’s not good to feel Akemi’s body hitting me here and there. The feeling of her thighs, her calves, her breasts, her breath on my neck, her faint breathing in her sleepโฆ.
Everything is bad.
Oh, no.
Oh noโฆ
Oh noโฆ
Is Akemi really asleepโฆ
I wonder if she’s really awakeโฆ
Maybe she’s just pretending to be asleep and gloating over my pathetic virginity movesโฆ?
But I don’t have the courage to find out.
If she’s really awake, what happens then?
On the other hand, if she’s really asleep, waking her up would be a bad idea, too.
Waking up from sleep is a prime condition for being in a bad moodโฆ
It will only lead to suspicion and teasingโฆ.
As I was thinking about this, she hugged me even tighter, and the closeness between our skin was even worse than beforeโฆ.
The feeling of the skin, the warmthโฆ
(Damn~, why do girls smell so goodโฆ we’re supposed to be in the same bath, but she smells completely differentโฆ and softโฆ and warmโฆ damn damn damn damn damn~โฆ)
Akiru is certainly stupid and inept.
Above all, he is a lazy person.
But he is a boy.
He had a one-sided loveโฆor rather, a feeling of unrequited love that continues to this day.
The feeling of longing for Akemi.
Wanting to touch herโฆwanting to feel herโฆand most of all, wanting to be relaxedโฆ
Pure craving, desireโฆ.
Another thing he wants to have a fair relationship with her,
he wants to be fair to her, he wants to be equal to her.
Because they are childhood friendsโฆ because they are friendsโฆ because they are loversโฆ
(A useless man like meโฆ is Akemi’s loverโฆ? You’re kidding meโฆ it’s totally out of proportionโฆ)
I have nothing left to offer, nothing to showโฆ
I want to have an equal relationship with Akemi.
If we can become equals in at least one way, then I can have confidence in myselfโฆ I can have the courage to be with Akemiโฆ.
Lovers must be equalโฆ
Otherwise, it will fall apart, won’t it?
There is no future for a relationship that keeps pessimistic feelings about the other person forever.
I want to be equal with Akemiโฆ soโฆ
“Aki kunโฆ”
(He โฆโฆ?)
“Akiโฆkuโฆโฆ.. suuuโฆsuuโฆ”
(Akemiโฆ?)
Talking in your sleep?
Was that a sleep talkโฆ?
She’s not awakeโฆ rightโฆ?
I am driven by the desire to check Akemi’s face, but I can’t look behind me because my body is bound by Akemi’s arms and legsโฆ.
I don’t dare to look at her face in the first place. If Akemi wakes up when I look at her face, she will tease me saying, “Why do you take me so seriously?~”
I can easily imagine such a future, but if I keep pretending to be asleep, Akemi’s teasing will end in failure, and I don’t want her to know I’m awakeโฆ.
But if Akemi is really asleep, and what she said in her sleep is what she really feels insideโฆ.
Sheโฆ
(Akemi unknowingly needs meโฆ?”)
Is there such a convenient thing?
For an incompetent no-good guy like me who keeps failing at everything he does?
To a smart, beautiful, popular girl like Akemi, who has many friends?
But if she needs me, then her past behavior makes sense.
Is she just being shy?
I think notโฆ
These actions are her own.
Then she must be unaware of it, or does Akemi herself not realize that she needs me?
I don’t knowโฆ
I don’t knowโฆ
In the end, I could not sleep properly that day, and it was not until the light began to stream in through the window that I let go of my consciousness.