The Love of My Childhood Friend, Who Has Overcome a Terminally Ill Diagnosis, Is Overwhelming
โI guess weโve been here a little too long.โ
After watching the planes from the airport observation deck for a while, I realized the area around us had already been swallowed up by complete darkness.
Kanade, who had been delighted by the colorful LED lights on the runwayโsaying they looked like Christmas lightsโalso seemed a little tired.
โShould we head home soon?โ
โBefore that, do you want to grab dinner at the airport?โ
Kanade suggested.
โHmm. But airport restaurants are usually pretty pricey, arenโt they?โ
โReally?โ
โYeah. โฆItโs a bit tough on a high school studentโs budget.โ
โI see. Thatโs too bad.โ
Kanade looked down, looking a little disappointed.
โโฆโฆA-kun.โ
But she quickly looked up again.
โbefore we go home, can we stop by one more place?โ
I wondered where on earth Kanade wanted to go.
โSure.โ
I had no reason to refuse, so I simply accepted her suggestion.
โAlright, letโs go.โ
โYeah.โ
We left the observation deck and headed back inside the airport.
Sandwiched between two foreigners carrying large suitcases, we made our way to the international departures level.
The international departures level was very spacious, perhaps because this airport handles so many international flights.
Just walking from one end to the other would leave someone who doesnโt get much exercise a little out of breath.
โโฆโฆWhere do you think weโre going?โ
โHehe. I was thinking of eloping with you, Akkun.โ
Kanade was in high spirits, cracking jokes.
Of course, without plane tickets, we couldnโt board a flight or even head to security.
โโฆโฆThis isโฆโ
I was smiling at Kanadeโs joke when she stopped walkingโฆ so I checked where we had ended up.
โAkkun, do you remember where this is?โ
Kanade asked.
โฆโฆThe place we were standing right now was in front of the international departure gate.
What kind of place this was. Of course, I remembered.
โฆโฆIโd never forgotten.
[โฆโฆBye-bye.]
This is the place where I once saw Kanade off as she left for France.
โDo you remember, Akkun? Right before we went through this gate, Mom and Dad said their goodbyes.โ
โโฆโฆI remember.โ
โThen, do you also remember what Mom and Dad said to us after that?โ
โOf course.โ
โฆโฆOur parents, as they were parting ways, encouraged each other as if to commend one anotherโs efforts.
And then, seeing us standing there in silence as we faced our own farewellโฆ
[Come on, you two.]
โฆโฆThey told us to say our goodbyes.
โDo you remember the conversation that followed?โ
โโฆโฆYeah.โ
โฆโฆEven now, if I close my eyes, I can remember it.
โโฆโฆAkkunโฆโ
Kanade spoke first.
โHave you ever been to France, Akkun?โ
And she said the same thing she did that day.
โโฆโฆNo.โ
โI see.โ
Kanade smiled.
โI have.โ
โโฆโฆI see.โ
โYeah. It wasโฆ well, to say I had a lot of fun would be a lie.โ
โโฆโฆDid you visit the tourist spots?โ
โYeah. โฆI did.โ
โฆโฆHer voice was trembling.
โIf I could have, I would have wanted to visit them with you.โ
Kanade looked down.
โโฆโฆThatโs the only thing I regret.โ
From Kanadeโs downcast eyesโฆโฆa tear fell.
โฆSeeing her like that, I could think of only one thing to say.
โThen, letโs go together next time.โ
I smiled.
โKanade, do you remember our last conversation that day?โ
โโฆโฆYeah.โ
โโDo your best.โ You never actually replied to me when I encouraged you like that, did you?โ
โโฆโฆโฆโฆYeah.โ
โโฆโฆI thought you must have had a vague idea. That weโd probably never see each other again.โ
โโฆโฆโ
โSo, I figured you didnโt reply to avoid giving me false hope.โ
โโฆโฆNot replying. I regretted it later.โ
Kanade spoke slowly, pouring out her feelings.
โAt the moment you said it, you were right. I was afraid that if I said the wrong thing, it would end up betraying you. Thatโs why I couldnโt say anything. Butโฆ the fact that I couldnโt say anything that day led to deep regret later on.โ
โโฆโฆโ
โI thought that if I was going to feel that way, I should have just been honest. I should have said, โIโm sorry. I donโt think I can do it.โโ
โโฆโฆโ
โBut because I didnโt say itโฆ it became painful. I started thinking.โ
โโฆโฆAbout what?โ
โAbout what the right answer should have been that day.โ
โโฆโฆโ
โAbout how you would have responded if it had been you that day.โ
โโฆโฆโฆโฆโ
โIโve been wondering what Iโd say to you if we ever met again.โ
The airport entrance.
Cheerful people speaking foreign languages, having just arrived from abroad.
People looking fed up, perhaps heading overseas for work.
A scene similar to the one from before spreads out before my eyes.
But there are also clear differences from before.
A restaurant Iโve never seen before has opened inside the entrance.
A new airline has entered the market that wasnโt there before.
โฆAnd weโve both grown quite a bit taller, too.
โโฆโฆWhat were you going to say?โ
Sheโs become so beautiful.
โIโm home.โ
Before I knew it, I was mesmerized by Kanadeโs smile.
โIโm home, A-kun.โ
โฆโฆWatching Kanade smile with tears welling up in the corners of her eyes.
โWelcome home, Kanade.โ
I smiled too.
โโฆโฆ!โ
Suddenly, a jolt ran through my chest.
Before I knew it, Kanade, overcome with emotion, had thrown herself into my arms.
โโฆโฆThat hurts.โ
โIโm sorry. Iโm sorryโฆโฆโ
Kanade buried her face in my chest.
โโฆโฆAkkun.โ
Then, she whispered to me.
โAkkunโฆ you really are so kind, arenโt you?โ
With her face still buried in my chest, Kanade continued.
โBecause youโre so kindโฆ I just couldnโt bring myself to let you go.โ
Maiasa